did i lose my love to someone better,
and does she love you like i do.....

yeah, she does.

alright, so today i woke up at ten am plus cuz as usual, i was freaking tired. and i dreamt that i went to japan and had a wild time shopping. i even dreamt of the clothes i tried on! hurhur. juz shows what im being deprived of for this promos huh. reached suntec earlier to study a bit. then met up with gracia for women's meeting. its really really good. makes me feel very loved by Jesus and you know, sometimes all you need is really just a touch from God to change your whole life forever. thats what i realized today. didnt go for the praise and worship though cause if i go, then my whole entire saturday would be taken up and promos is on tuesday and i havent finish studying. dinner with gracia and then studied a bit more at macs. got a bit distracted and tired, so i went to raffles city to take a walk and bought myself some pens&markers. aunt came and fetched me home after that.

damn freaking tired ah. think im going off to bed soon.

and i always like it when it rains.

God Bless (:

a smile/call/message a day makes clarice's world swayyyyyyy. (:

right, so took a cab to school for consultation today cause i was really too freaking tired yesterday and i woke up late. and then i alighted at the side gate ONLY to find that the side gate was LOCKED. so i had to walk one big round to the main gate. thanks a lot for the morning exercise ah.

-math consulation
-history consultation
- econs consultation

and it all went pretty well. lunch in school with gloria. wantonnnnnn noodles! heh. after that, i studied.

and now, im homeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

my internet is working at a super slooooooooooooow speed. so i think im off to bed soon. oh, i currently like the song the day you went away by roger creager a lot.

goodnight world and God bless.

sometimes i think im really foolish to smile so widely and blissfully over just one sms from a...friend and its funny how one simple sms can make your whole day right and bright. i hope you know that i care for you as a friend. i think people should smile more from the bottom of their hearts because they make others feel happy too when they smile (: its like a priceless smile you know. nods.

TODAY, even though i didnt do much, i feel happy for i-dont-know what reason. i feel happy, full and tired. and im. sO. sLEEpy. . .

tomorrow, im going back to school for teachers consultation.

i hope my school does something great for me tmr. not about the consultation part though. its ABOUT . . . . . . .

goodnight world.

hello, morning world!

woke up kinda early today. bet you guys are all still sleeping. anyway, macs for breakfast and im talking to charissa online now. ohmygawd i miss charissa and teacher kev like super lots. and they're growing so much. ones a coach now, and the other an assistant coach soon to be. makes me feel encourage when i talk to people like that you know, cuz i know that my God has so much more installed for me as i grow. rahh, its gonna be a good journey in the end. (:

econs, history, math and chem. left with these four papers to go. 6 days to revise! go clarice!

chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun

rahhhhhhh.

hello people! promos tmr promos tmr! hahah. aiyah actually im kinda scared man. its always like that. the start of an exam always make me feel super nervous. but im just giving it all to Jesus yeah. ill do my best and daddy will do the rest. anyway, all the best to everyone whose having their promos! esp to a3 and my fellow comrades aka my friendS. i think this coming week is gonna be the busiest week of my year 2006 cuz theres one week study break to study!

anyway, first today with serene, huizhi, gracia, vanessa, jiaying and kanna. sundays are the best! but even better without tuitionS. haha. msg was pretty good but i almost fell asleep and then i heard someone blowing at me, retarded-ly. heh. lunch after that at carls junior..the food there they serve are like zomg super big. but no worries, our lovely sereneseah always finish up her food no matter rain or shine(:

tuitions after that and it kinda made me think quite a lot...
like actually no, i wouldnt want to make the first move cuz im really scared im gonna get hurt. and besides, it doesnt really matter anymore. maybe i dont need someone whose so smart, so good looking, so.... good at everything else. maybe all i need is someone who can make me laugh and run with me if i wanted to, and stop with me if i feel like stopping. and just.........being himself. i think it will make my world happier. rather than me trying to strike up a conversation with you, why not juz let someone come find me and totally sweep me off my feet? im tired of trying to always look out for you.

mrt is coming!!
k: do you wanna go over?
me: huh huh huh *panics* should we? wah i damn scared the door close
k: haha wont la i dont think it will close yet. it will usually wait for us
me: huh u sure or not..aiyah dont want la, we wait for the next train
k: haha okay
me: eh dont want la dont want!! i think we can make it faster run faster!
and k runs with me.

sure, nothing special about him cuz hes like my normal tuition friend. i think ppl would think hes like a big time loser..cuz i thought so too at first..but after today, i think he made me realise all i need is just a simple guy. haha and that guy has yet to be found.

YUP and now im back home! haha just had dinner and im gonna bath, read a bit and off to dream land! (:

God bless!

When There Was Me And You - High School Musical

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you


nope im not emo-ing. haha damn nice lyrics and super nice song. high school musical is love (:

alright, im feeling better now! (:

so im back to school tmr.

anyway, just a random thought. how come mugging is equivalent to studying very hard for a long period of time? cuz i dont see how mug = study? hahahah. okay la, i was bored. :/

OKAY, this time im really sick.

i said yesterday that i kept sneezing right. so before i went to sleep last night, i took the flu medicine and went to bed early (10pm plusplus) then i woke up several times in the middle of the night to sneeze and cough. so hard to sleep in peace pls. then this morning, i had a really bad blocked nose. and i went to school. okay, so econs lecture, nothing went into my head cuz i was feeling really lousy by my nose and throat. and i had a bad headache. i felt like i was kinda spinning SO ive decided to go see a doctor cuz promos is looming and i dont wanna fall sick during that period. its gonna be so so so troublesome. had to wait for ms wong for an hour though, cuz she had lessons after the lecture. so i waited, ate chicken porridge with cui, audrey and yuanyu. talked lame stuff. haha. then ms wong came to com lab to pass me the green slip. awww, shes so sweet pls.

so i took a cab to see the family doctor. i dont like to consult other doctors except him when i feel that im really going to fall sick. yeah so im down with a common cold, with flu, cough and fever. then i just asked him, ' hey, by the way, how do you study for your A levels ah?' and so the consultation turned out to be a short talk about studies too. he's from NJC btw. (dr vivian balakrishnan too!) he said at that time there were only RJ, hwachong and NJ. and he said i really have to be consistent and ask the teacher if i have any queries. and like by the end of year 1, i REALLY have to understand my year 1 syllabus. which is why he said that he went back to sch almost EVERYDAY during the holidays to study. and he said that i have to exercise too. haha so i was lamenting on how tough the A levels is now and how i have no time to exercise cuz of promos? haha and the talk turned out pretty good. heh, hes kinda like my role model. ^_^

and so, i just ate the medicine. i think ill go sleep now and then wake up later on to do some work. ohhhh, he gave me two days mc (i know audrey and cui you both are jealous) i told him to put your names but he knows my name. so, im sorry! hahahahaha. but i think i will be going to school tmr cuz i just feel like going. yeahhhh, thats all now. cyahhhh.

THIS IS probably the PROUDEST THING which i've done this week (:

and even thou im being called a noob by nicky, haha hey, at least im her dear noob you know! yeah was home by 3pm but i kinda slacked till now. hurhur. tried to sleep but to no avail because i was using the tissue paper like its free flow (sneezinglikemad) and its so hard to sleep cuz when i lie down on my bed, my nose get blocked. :/









PROMOS faster end!!!

I FINALLY FINISHED MY RETARDED SHITASS BIBLIOGRAPHY. sdjfdksfghdfjkghsdjfghsdjkghdhgsdg.

first today at indoor with serene, gracia, wanling, jiaying, kanna and the rest of the peeps. super good i tell you. the whole indoor was filled and it was just so homely. as in usually we only go for first service but this time its like four services combined together? (: ohhhh and i miss dare so freaking much. talked to charissa, teacher kev and saw all the familiar faces. haha felt really happy. its like they're juz like my family even though im in campus now. hurhur.

pepper lunch with gracia after that and then she went home to study. hope it was a productive day for you! yeah then i went to my secret burger king to study. studied history. tmr got history test la! and i havent finish studying yet, as usual. history is like omgzzzz so much to study. math and econs went pretty alright. my math is still bad as usual. integration alone makes me forget ALL my other formulas and now i gotta memorize them all over again..and i juz realised that my back chapters for econs are really lousy..like i dont really know what are the factors and stuff?

this week is gonna be real hectic. daddy, i juz pray that this week, you'll give me and all my lovely friends who are taking promos the strength and wisdom and ur grace to go thru this week. everyone's feeling stressed up and i too feel it. but daddy, everythings in your hands now. i can forget about sleeping, i can forget about watching tv, i can forget about almost everything..but daddy, dont ever let me forget about your love for me. its all im depending on now to get thru this promos. amen.

God bless ya all.

from gracia :

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
Gender: male
Pointers (WITH NO RANKING):
1) man of god.
2) goooood sense of humour
3) faithful
4) forgiving
5) have a gd sense of fashion((: in other words, metrosexual(:
6) have a stable career
7) down-to-earth(: but still a lil romantic
8) intellectual

i want clarice to do this(:

!!!!! dsaf' jaf;kjfaskfjas; yeah so here i am..btw, those which has this face (: for gracia, i think u all know whose shes thinking about. talk about METROSEXUAL. if you understand
gluconeogenesis, you understand it all. nods.


Gender: male (DUH?!?!)
Pointers: (WITH NO RANKING)
1) christian (but if hes not, nvm. i can bring him to church) ^_^
2) love me more than i love him
3) friendly
4) have a sense of humor
5) gentlemen *important*
6) sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet
7) a bit of looks can alrdy. ( but even if i say with looks, the guys i like and whom i think is good looking, usually everyone say not good looking. haha )
8) unique

today
is
a
very
boring
day
tmr
theres
church
and
i
miss
my
friends
very
much.
thx
bye.

just watched the korean show which jess lent me..millionaire's first love. hurhur. haha damn freaking touching plsssss. i wonder who is the one whom you will consider as your first love?

is it someone you like really freaking lots?
muz it be a two way kinda thing?
or maybe.......juz the first person whom you ever liked in your whole life?

haha damn confusing.. heh.

woahhhhhhhh congrats to chenpei for getting BEAUTIFUL results!

oral communication - A
business statistics - A+
computer & information processing - distn.
organisational behaviour - distn.
microeconomics - distn.
gps = 3.9091

MUCH contrary to mine. sianzzz X1000000000000000. AIYA, procrastinate so much also still must study.

i go read newspaper now.

yesteday i spent my whole night doing eom and today i spent my whole entire night doing my freaking WR and even though i feel like ive done a lot, theres still quite a bit to do and i ACTUALLY WASTED MY NIGHT AWAY, skipping singapore idol to do my wr and its still not FINISHED. damn freaking irritating.

i feel very irritated now cuz i havent do my history essays which ive long wanted to do. all because of PWWWW. jf;sdkf;asdkgjd;slgjsdlkgj;sdfklgjsdkflgjsd;flg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aiyah, i dont want to talk anymore.

sometimes things really happen when you least expect it. its like so sudden. zzz dotz. and make that least-expect-it-things to happen x2 :/

so many stuff to do. its like never ending.

i wonder what my reply would be if one day you ask if we could meet up to just catch up.

but for now,

i think im at least contented with what ive have and being able to feel okay without you in my life. weeeeeeee and im off to try to finish up my work.

God bless.

im currently reading my history. history rocks! dotz.

but in the midst of studying, at least i know Jesus is with me and so are my friends. heh.

[chuazihao] somorp=deniater says:
2nd time they made such a dumb mistake
[chuazihao] somorp=deniater says:
they nv learn

referring to the wrong timings of TESTS.

&

from the nick

tranquility in my mind says: to =====> tranquility in my mind. EOM SHIT says:

hahaha, i think thats really funny. aiyahhhhhhhhh go clarice!

first today with serene, gracia, jiaying and kannan(?) haha. fell asleep AGAIN. tsk, im really gonna sleep early next week! lunch at crystal jade after that. studied with gracia and huizhi at secret BK. (now secret no more. secret toilet no more too) and math tuition after that!

after tuition, mmm i was gonna meet gracia to go home together. then i saw marc, yaoguang and liwei. then yaoguang and liwei said bye to marc so i went up to marc and said hi. so yeah then we talked quite a lot. met gracia and the three of us walked to the train station together.

sorry, i cannot really gather my thoughts now.

BUT IM REALLY HAPPY TODAY. XD

huhhhhh i just remembered i have econs case study to do after school tmr and i havent touch my econs AT ALL YET! somemore keith asked whether got econs test tmr i still say dont have dont have! :/ and i have history lecture test tmr and i havent finish studying yet! ahhhhhhhh nooooooOOOOO.

hello people! the past few days felt wasted cause i didnt do anything much. cant remember what i did too except running out of sch to macs with cui&jess at 9.30am on thurs (when econs is supposed to start) to buy breakfast! then ran back to sch for lessons. haha cheap thrill huh. BUT i like. XD

TODAY TODAY was superfreaking fun and good though. morning and afternoon was spent doing nothing except juz chatting with people online. THEN, about evening time, met up with QI, JESS & NIC for dinner at new york. weeeeeeeeeee. and qi, the ahma said that barney is a BROWN BEAR horxzxz. we nearly fainted. green candy floss tasted good. heh.

after dinner, nic's dad fetched us to indoor stadium for WESTLIFE CONCERT!!! haha and nic's dad is reallyyyyy nice. haha thanks nic+nic's dad for sending us there. heh. then we took turns to take picture with a rolls royce..a tourist asked us to help him take a picture too! haha damn funny la. reached indoor stadium and....

teehee. took pictures again while waiting for the concert to start. haha. then the concert started...

and awwwwww the concert was so freaking good pls..SHANE IS MY NEW FOUND LOVE. yeah totally enjoyed ourselves. heh. but it was kinda short though..they didnt sing if i let you go!! i was longing for that song man! but it was still good overall ^_^

went to raffles place to slack after that and ah ma and aunty always walk very slow so not hip and happening like me and nic..tsk. haha. rested at bk cuz the other shops were all closing alrdy. yeah then we all went home. anddddd there'll be more to come..AFTER PROMOS.

i really enjoyed myself heh. tmr studying with serene baby in the morning! alright, gotta go now. BUT before i leave, I REALLY OMGajfdsfdsfghdkfgsdgj;sdlgjvk;dsgj LIKE SHANE! HES THE MAN ALRIGHT!
NITEZ!

hello people!

yesterday while i was sleeping soundly, qi called..

me: hello?
qi: eh clarice, where are you?!
me: mmm at home? why?
qi: you not coming for econs ah?!
me: what time is it now?
qi: uhhh 9..9.05 like that.
me: @_@ !!!!!!!!

so there goes my first attempt to be studious? right, so met up with the other odac people and we went for indoor rock climbing! it was funnnn. haha and qi keeps saying CLARICE is on top so she must climb up. hahaha okay luh. i kinda distorted the fact. its not CLARICE LUH ALRIGHT. but overall, i had a good time :D

at night, family gathering at the resort. mmm, dinner was GOOD. teehee. then did some catching up with the cousinssss. its funny how reuben now know my pri and sec sch friends and how i know his too. haha. and hes damn funny. soooo we just talked a lot..and it was niceeeeee.

TODAY, math remedial for THREE HOURS. but it was productive. finally know inequalities better. hurhur. yeah after that was braindead for 1 hour plus. just sat and stoned. went to ask about the archery thingy after that and home sweet home. OH, on my way back (on the train) theres this kid who was super duper cute. he was like talking super loudly to these three teenage guys whose about my age. and hes like super cute can! then the teenage guy whom the boy was talking to was like feeling damn shy and all... you know when the boy and his dad reached the station, before they alighted, the boy HUGGED the teenage guy LEHHHHH. its like soooo awwwwwww. children really know how to express how they feel huh. i dont know, but it just feels so heartwarming to see that.

and i just got home......................................gonna go pack my room and study. bye! ^_^

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY GRACIA GAN! (:

first was okay today. after that, we kinda celebrated gracia's birthday! haha hope she liked it. ^_^

AND, that was the only nice and good and fun part. the rest was a flop, floP, FLOP. math tuition was super bad and i skipped econs.

IF THE WORLD IS FILLED WITH GUYS LIKE *****, ILL MAKE AN EXCEPTION AND DIE A VIGIN. NO REGRETS.

ENOUGH SAID.

HELLO PEOPLE!

havent been blogging for like about a week cuz i was really busy like mad. its the busiest week of my august-september month. haha. okay, let me recap what i did over the week.

sat - campus&dinner with seahseah.

sun - first&tuitions

mon - sch, studied for math test and did a bit of work

tue - sch, math test, english tution and teck chuan's bday chalet. haha. it was great seeing old school peeps. and boy, do the boys grow..gosh, all of them are like so much taller than me! haha but it was good anyhow(:

wed - sch, odac cancelled, studied econs test with qi&siying at suntec starbucks. heard the saddest real life story from the two people sitting beside us.

thurs - teachers' day, ECONS test (whateverrrr!!), lunch with 4E3 people! woahhhhh, i miss ALL of them! haha they're still as funny as ever and always making fun of each other. teehee. time spent was greatttttt, slacked at coffeebean with huizhi, gracia, david&eelen, saw perlin, cjc drama concert with huizhi. roy, well done! saw shamir! haha. then huizhi saw her friends. dinner at food republic after that. hokkien mee and i saw number twentyfourrrr. LOL. called up the three girls to tell them about it. haha. talked a lot and then home.

she wants two kids so badly..see, she alrdy chose the clothes that she wants to buy for them next time..TSK.

fri - FIRST AID TEST. I PASSED ALREADY OKAY! no more first aid foreverzxzxz. after that, krunk with serene and sheena. at first, met up with jane and her two other friends. saw quite a no. of ppl, both from sec and jc. hurhur. haha. then right then right, saw yao guang and one more tuition friend and their friends. and then in the end, we all just joined each other for a while. ^_^ haha. it was kinda funny and overall, it was pretty good cuz the company was good. cabbed home and serene stayed over. serene is a bum i tell you. haha shes like the bummest girl ever. haha fell asleep at 6am and woke up at 1pm. ate breakfast and then serene went home and here i am.

haha okay, thats about my week. and mmm more to come after promos which end on SIX OCTOBER! haha. coolio..but for now, i think i better put in my best to study hard. c yah all and God bless!