Sem 2.

Happy holidays people!

Early in the morning by 9am, almost all of us were online waiting for the time to come to register our modules. Gosh, this is seriously driving us crankyyyyyy. Nonetheless, am glad that next sem, we will still see each other around, T2! YO.

Holidays have been pretty good, but it's getting a little boring sometimes. Am looking forward to Christmas this year! Seems like it's gonna be a lot of fun. I shall start updating more often! hopefully. :D

3/4.

First up, happy birthday to princess val! =) It was awesome meeting up with the f&f girls. <3

I am feeling so bored now I am going to fall asleep. Last paper on wed. Let's just say I really can't wait for exams to be over! All the best to everyone else whose having their papers during this period, and after that, we can totally let our hair down and partyyyyyyy.

Can't wait for christmas to be here this year. I think it's gonna be awesome, really.

P.S, i dontlikeglobalisationanymore.

above all.

wow, sorry for my lack of updates! i can see that i have been pretty stagnant here (shall attempt not to be so stagnant anymore).

life has been pretty good. with its ups and downs (duh) and with exams coming in EIGHT days time, i want to put on my specs, wear long skirts and just be a geek. x.X okay, not like being a geek = smart.

i shall post up pictures after my exams which ends on 19th nov! haha freedom bell rings. i miss f&f girls x100000000.

for now, i guess i shall just stick to packing my notes! =)

Hello world, hope you're listening.

Six weeks into school and week seven is going to start in a day's time.

Time really flies. I kinda wish that time would pass slower so that I could have the time to just stone.

I hope everyone whose reading this is doing good. Haven't updated here in a while but just to let you know that I'm alive (just in case you're wondering where in the world have I been). Meet ups with all my loves during the past few weeks had been really good. I'm missing all of you now already.

One midterm test next week (just proves my point that time really flies) and then it's recess week. I've already started making plans for my recess week haha I sound so deprived.

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reporting live from school.

third week into school and this is actually the actual start of proper school for the next eight weeks or so.

life has been pretty good and I'm more or less settling down. but the amount of readings are stacking up each day like nobody's business. ilovesociology. its sucha a fun subject which makes you think a lot. =)

well, i hope everyone's doing good too! be it in school or army. God bless!

signing off,
ilikegreenn.

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went out to read with weiling today. it was very funny. met up with pinky and dawnie after that and it was so good to see them. hearts them totally. i miss all the girls! really miss you all a lot. lets all really meet up soon okay?

loves. (:

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first week of school had been pretty good. but really busy. thank God for no school on mon and tues to catch up with friends and readings. all the best to the nus people starting school this week! (:

God bless.

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school's starting tmr.

i finally got my whole timetable planned out. so its a four day week in school for me for the next 12 weeks. thats good considering the fact that i was absent at least once every week in sa.

perhaps its due to the long holiday that i had which makes me feel like im still in the holiday mood. cant really tune myself into the school mode. i guess it will take a while to adjust back. no more waking up at 12noon-ish except on tues.

update me about your school! (the one reading this unless you're still in army then...its a different story) eggcited to know about it!

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today, i went for hss welcome day. met up with weiling before that for lunch. and someone was obviously lacking behind in time (i hope you're not reading this). the welcome day was okay. actually, not really. but it was fine. thank God weiling was with me, or else i think ill just hide in the toilet and start calling people up. got my matriculation card and i really wish i had given them a better photo of myself. maybe i should just lose my card so that i can make a new one. ha ha. okay no, i was just kidding.

met up with cia and huizhi for dinner at tm after that. it was good. its really nice to just chill and hang out with people whom you love. (:

i said in the previous post that school starts in three days time. well, i take that back because the first week of school there's no tutorials. so no tutorial this coming monday = no school. and tuesday i dont have any lessons. so technically, school starts in four days time for me!

i am going to sleep early today. been sneezing a lot the later half of the day and i feel really tired. so goodnight world.

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today, i went for GL. it was good. i would think forty-five mins is really not enough.

met up with huizhi, gracia and jo for dinner after that, followed by a great time of fellowship. it was awesome. oh, frolick is currently one of my favorite food. <3 i was buying yogurt today at frolick and the person working there (who was really pretty btw) asked if i was from sa. and im like really surprised because i didnt realise she's from sa. but it was pretty cool i guess. (:

school's starting in three days time.

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today, i met up with a few of my cg girls and we went to jade's house to chill out. watched the video 'This Is Our God' and a sermon by T.D.Jakes during hillsong conference last year. it was good. after that, we fellowshipped quite a bit and i was quite amazed by myself. how things have just been accelerated.

i guess when you've caught a glimpse of it, you'll want more and you'll realised that you can never get enough of it.

with stars on.

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today, i met up with bestie to catch up at town. talked a lot and we both realised quite a lot of things about ourselves. that we are not alone in this. it got kinda spooky at one point of time, but im glad that things always turn out for our good. caught red cliff and it was a pretty awesome movie i must say, although it being a bit gruesome.

i realised that i really like soup pasta. they taste so yummy.

and now, im craving for famous amos cookies.

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today i woke up really early. which kinda resulted in me sleeping even more after that. i literally spent my whole day sleeping today. school's starting in a week's time and i really need to start sleeping properly. i dont wanna be late for my lessons.

i realised that im beginning to like staying in at home more and more. and like do nothing, except to read and listen to songs, and sleep. on the contrary, i dislike going out, especially to crowded and congested places more and more. in a way, they make me feel like puking and sends my mind off in a whirl.

with stars on.

hello everybody.

It's been a while, hasn't it?

I'm really glad for this journey. Period of molding and sharpening. It's indeed like a miracle. =)

I just really wanna thank you guys (everyone of you) who are there to share my pain with me through this toughest period of my life, who believe with me for the best and never gave up on me. And now, you guys share my joy. It's not only my joy because in my opinion, this joy is shared among all of us. Indeed.

Above all else, thank You abba for everything. thank You daddy for being there even at times where I just gave up. You never did. Not a single moment. And no words could express how I felt throughout this whole journey. You were my only constant companion. And You are the same yesterday, today and forever will be. Thank You so much.

Yup, am loving my short hair! ha ha. Was kinda worried that I might not like it at first, but going for a change is always good! I LOVE and HEART the people above! (PLUS MY FAVOURITE NICKYYY whose not in the picture, someone's in PARIS at that time eh. YOU'RE BEING MISSED POKKK!) I want to insert my whole cg group picture plus all the church friends picture but sorry, don't have one full picture of all of us in it. :D

ANYWAYS, I thought it through. I actually drew out a mind map of what I'm actually bothered about and at first I was still quite disturbed and worried. But after the talk with sis, I'm good. It's just one small problem but I choose to magnify it a thousand times which is totally unnecessary. I have my family who loves me and wants me to be happy, friends who loves me and wants me to be happy and most importantly, I have GOD who will never condemn me no matter what happens and LOVES me and wants me to be HAPPY above all else. So I really shouldn't be so upset. It's not the end of the world or anything. I'm going to start expecting again from today onwards. (:

nightmares.

This is supposed to be a happy post.

But I changed my mind.

Right now, I feel like I'm living in a nightmare. I want to wake up and get everything over and done with. It's been three months and it's leeching on to me.

Why won't you understand me? Why is it so hard to talk to you? I know all the right answers and I know what I should do. But I don't need you to tell them to me right now. I just need someone real to hug me and let me cry. I don't want to imagine. I don't want to think. Don't tell me all the right answers and what I should do, because I know.

It's silly, I know. But I found my comfort in a piece of paper which has really ugly handwriting. But it is there, I find myself to be normal.

BACK!

Ahoy everyone! ilikegreenn is back from hiatus! (:

Just got back from church camp at batam and it was really good! Will update more later. Came home and slept for like 19 hours! yup, that's like my record breaking amount of time that I've ever slept.

I know you guys really miss ilikegreenn so I'm back!

Going for fourth service later so i gotta go get ready now. Blessed day ahead people! :D

time check: 4.20am.

mount of beatitudes
nothing but the blood
i will run to you
hosanna
saviour king
potter's hand
healer
from the inside out
settled down thoughts
dont worry
ravens
lilies
solomon
how much more
hose
seek Him first
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'who do YOU say I am, clarice?'
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peace in my heart and mind
finally tired
and able to sleep.

because i know that i know that i know that its only and only between You and me. and i know You're my only answer, not anyone else.

when the whole mix of emotions come rushing over you and your heart beats so fast...when you cant seem to settle down and your mood just take for a plunge...its not that you dont want to believe..its just that believing seems so....hard at such a point of time. thousands of thoughts are running through my head now. 'what if....what if....' stop it clarice. stop thinking. i really want to believe..i really do. but daddy, im really quite faithless to believe right now. it came too fast, my mind couldnt process it. my heart couldnt stop beating so fast and my face feels really hot.

and i just want to hide under my bed and cry.


abba, give me the strength to control my emotions and patience to wait, because for now..i really feel like its hopeless..the one thing im trusting You for..the one thing that is close to my heart..i do NOT accept this. amen.


how im feeling now: ): x10000000000000000000000000

i'm currently at work and its so boring because i have no flights until much later..i realised that this has been happening to me quite often when i work. i know its cool to just slack and get paid. but..this is like woahhhhh. haha okayz. whateverz.

soooo i hope everyone's having a good week thus far. (:

thank you abba for the friends you've put around me. the fellowship that we share is awesome. i just wanna thank you for that. really... for each and everyone of my friends........

okay this is getting so random and out of point. rahhhhhhhhh :/

awesome praise and worship.
awesome anointing.
awesome sermon.

I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I
no more.

slowly but surely. i know He will teach me and He has already begun. long before i was even born.

here's the pictures from botanic gardens! (: celebrated qi's birthday on tuesday with the girls! it was definitely awesomeee! i love the picnic, the laughter, fun and joy that we all had! i tell you its crazy when all of us are together with our own unique characters. HA HA. :D dessert at cold rock was cool too! lets have a F&F day soon cuz im missing you girls alrdy! (: love each and everyone of you to bits and pieces <3





















well, i think the pictures says it all. hope you've enjoyed yourself qi! (:

one of my FAVOURITEST picture of all time:


pleasant surprises...i could make do with more of them (: even if its not concerning me sometimes..i just like how things fall into place. you wouldnt know and i dont think you'll ever know but i hope and pray that if its meant to be, it would eventually be.

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i wouldnt deny that ill feel worried and scared sometimes when i think about it. its worrying and scary when you have no news about anything at all and you're kept in suspense all the way. its even more worrying when you hear about others. it just makes you feel like you're not going to get it and you're like doomed? BUT i know the word You've been teaching me and daddy, i ASK that you give me your grace and strength to get through this. in times of situations like this, it just exposes all my weaknesses and show me how much i fall short of everything. but daddy, i know that You still havent given up on me because it is not I, but the grace of God. amen. thank you abba for that.

You would never ask me why...My heart is so disguised

clarice, you're sucha contradictor yourself most of the times..tsktsk...

i think my sleeping timings are seriously messed up. im sleeping at like 3am plus every night and waking up at around 12 in the afternoon. :/

soooooo i havent been updating about my work for quite some time. hmmm...i would say its pretty good (despite the low wage and crazy working hours). huizhi said she's proud of me for sticking to my job for so long. i think so too actually...its just not very me to stick to this job for so long you know? anyways, ONE of the things that im very amazed is that...the aunties NEVER stop quarreling. they never seem to run out of things to quarrel about. but actually i think thats how they work together. so one thing i've learnt from this is - never choose to work in a workplace filled with ALL ladies...ha ha okay im just kidding...but i know each and everyone of them has their own story to tell......totally different backgrounds.

i guess i have learnt a lot from them. although sometimes i really think they're super naggy and irritating, my heart still goes out to each and everyone of them. yeap! (:

shall blog more about what i've learnt from working next time! hohoho! :/

air supply - goodbye.

i think it happened that day when you pulled me back......
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today was sucha awesome day spent with my favorite sa people. will blog more when i have all the pictures! (:

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patience my young lady...
today was different. although i still felt a little impatient, it was better than the other times whereby i'd just feel sad immediately. i had to remind myself constantly of course. but i saw Him smiling at me today. for the past five months He's been showing me that particular word and i've failed so many times with regards to that particular word. but He never failed to guide me along and tell me that its okay and ill feel silly immediately after that. (that's why i say i'd rather have Him as my teacher. He's the MOST patient teacher with me) Today, He smiled at me and say, 'I'm very proud of you.'. that made me smile too.

woah, my history teacher just added me on facebook. O.O

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i keep having this feeling that i totally wont fit in with my future *EL**O*P (if i really do get into the course i want) dont ask me why. i also dont know why. the thought of it makes me wanna be anti-social and just sit in a corner and sulk the whole day. and it really doesnt help when suddenly they keep appearing before you. -SULKS-

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aiyah, dont think so much first lah.

ilikegreen. indeed. no, i love green. but i dislike vegetables.

i like the fact that You want ALL of us to play a part in it and not only some of us. i like the fact that You want us to give so that You can give us so much more. i like the fact that You're the most patient person towards me while i was being the most impatient person towards You. there's no other teacher i'd rather have beside You. You're not only my Savior and my teacher, You're really my everything. MOST of all, i like the fact that it's not because of the qualities that i possess or my background, nor is it what they have in them, but really it's simply just because You love me and your favor is on ME. i like the fact that its just so simple and nothing else. thankYou abba. (:

thank You for the friends that You've put around me. each and everyone of them has taught me something and i know that its not by chance that You put them in my life. i really appreciate each and everyone of them. thank You very much daddy.

blessed week ahead everybody! (:

never could i imagine...

you know how they say things happen when you least expect it? i totally understood what that meant today.

i've always wanted to see how you look like in real person, close up. but never would i have thought that it would be today, at that particular place, that particular time. i mean of ALL places either of us could have been..you were just sitting beside me. and i was really shocked. too shocked as a matter of fact..i took a while to actually process my brain. i thought i would feel bitter and upset and all the sad memories would come back. but it didnt. i was just shocked. thats it. i thought i would feel emo all over again, but i didnt. i didnt feel anything anymore. and it actually makes me feel...happy. i really think there's gonna be something better than that. i'm just really really glad i'm over it. (and if you want to know who i saw, ASK ME. i know you want to know. and i dont think you can guess who i met)

Definitely, Maybe with the other two partners was really cool! turning to the one sitting in the middle to ask about the movie when actually she couldnt figure out either, changing from beef noodles to ban mian, sitting by the pool/pond (whichever), having heart to heart talks, laughing ourselves silly, moving on to macs cuz of itchy hands, hitting one another and doing the hand signs throughout the whole walk to the mrt station. it was definitely fun. (not maybe) (:

arrow laterz! be seeing the cg and the lovelies! yay! goodnight and God bless! (:

sa = <3

hanging out with my favorite sa people in this whole world is one of the BEST ways i wanna spend my day (: more to come next week! (:

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what would be your definition of meaningful? i used to think that i'll be the happiest girl on Earth if we're together. but now i realized, i actually would be the saddest girl if that happens because i could never live up to what you think is good, be it for you or for me. and all i could do is try, but it would never have make me happy. so i'm glad i'm over it.

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'and frankly, at the end of de day, a guy who doesn't value u doesn't know what he's doing.. U must have that attitude seriously.. =) You're a princess! Not some ordinary girl yea. =)'

we all should believe in that (:

ask...

today is the best day out of this whole week (:

met up with bestie for lunch and its been a longggggg time since we met up. so it was really good to see her! we went to three foodcourts before i finally found BEEF NOODLES. gosh, the other two foodcourts didnt have like beef noodles..and i thought normally foodcourt sell beef noodles you know? yeap then we bought ice cream and went to look for jo and the rest of the peopleee at macs..and the non-studying people (serene, me, brian, matthias, joel, eugene and bobby) ended up playing UNO which was like really funnnnnn. :D

sermon today was really good..its been quite some time since i felt the way i felt today..and really, the only thing that i want now is to know His love for me and Himself personally all over again. after service was dinner with jo, weiling, jg, lanz and nicholas. this time round, i want to eat prawn noodles and then the person told me they RAN OUT of noodles! like seriouslyyyyy..had a great dinner with them and we spent most of the time laughing about everything..haaa headed for the train station after that (did some shopping along the way) and i wanted to go to the restroom but GUESS WHAT, the toilet is under construction and i was like OMGZXZXZ.

but yeah today's really great. thank you abba for that. sometimes its the simple things in life that can make you the happiest. i think i know what that means. goodnight and God bless! (:

guardian angel.

'Yesterday you can't alter, but your reaction to yesterday you can. The past you cannot change, but your response to your past you can.'.

these words just popped out and spoke to me when i took a random book on jg's house table (while playing board games) and just flipped it to a random page. it seems as though this sentence carries a meaning deeper than what it seems to say to me. hmm...and i cant seem to stop thinking about it until i finally understand what it means...to me.

RESTLESSNESS. what an apt word indeed. totally just nailed my heart.

BUT thank You that You didnt give up on me. really...and thank You for coach and the people whom You have placed in my life for this season.

today's board games session at jg's house was really fun! (: im really liking to play mafia more and more! enjoyed the company to the max! :D

and sis is coming back in THREE days time! weeeeeeeeeeee! God bless!

you've got a friend.

When youre down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, whoa nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name,
And you know whereever I am
Ill come running, oh yeah baby
To see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
All you have to do is call
And Ill be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Youve got a friend.

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
And soon I will be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name and you know where ever I am
Ill come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you got to do is call
And Ill be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey, aint it good to know that youve got a friend?
People can be so cold.
Theyll hurt you and desert you.
Well theyll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but dont you let them.

You just call out my name and you know wherever I am
Ill come running to see you again.
Oh babe, dont you know that,
Winter spring summer or fall,
Hey now, all youve got to do is call.
Lord, Ill be there, yes I will.
Youve got a friend.
Youve got a friend.
Aint it good to know youve got a friend.
Aint it good to know youve got a friend.

somehow, i feel that You're singing this song to me..i know i may be stubborn at times (or rather most of the times), denying the things which You've shown me just because i refuse to believe and just open my heart to it. But I ask that You'll teach me. i choose to run away because im afraid. but im seriously quite tired of running away.

anyway, huizhi's at taiwan now! so not used to her not being around me right here...but i hope you're having a great time now sis! (:

i miss my classmates very very much!

guardian angels.

have a very blessed week ahead people! (:

randomrandomrandomrandom.

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One day, the Dad said to the child, 'Go for it and take that which you've always wanted sweetheart.'. The child reached forward and just as the child was going to grab hold of what she wanted, she started feeling scared. Why? Why was she feeling frightened when what she wanted was so close to her. 'If only i could just move my hand a little closer and grab it...' she thought to herself. What exactly was stopping her from making that move? She did not know. Perhaps she felt that all these was too good to be true. Perhaps she didn't believe that it was meant for her. Perhaps she... She pulled back her hand and began to shiver as she was being swallowed up in her own thoughts.

What she didn't realized was, while all these were happening, her Dad was just beside her, watching her every movement and knowing her every thought. Yet, she was too caught up in her own thoughts to notice it.

'Why does it hurts Dad? Why? All along I've been searching for it and when I found what I've been trusting you for, I didn't have the courage to believe You would see me through. I'm such a coward Dad...' The girl started crying like a three year old kid, feeling stupid for giving up in so many occasions.

HE hugged her and felt her every pain. There was no need for words. Just His presence alone suffice.

If only you would believe that it was all paid for by Me and it's all rightfully yours...
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Even as she wrote this down, tears were rolling down her cheeks.

untitled.

weekends are here! (:

night out with huizhi, serene and vic was fun! we should have more outings like that! hopefully next time cia will be able to join us! (:

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'if i keep thinking about you, does that mean that i really like you?' the child asked the Dad.

sometimes i really wish that i knew the answer. but then again, would i be able to take it? or maybe i'll just break down once again, like i used to. i dont think im ready for that. then give me the strength and patience and control my feelings. dont let it control me. honestly, i've never had the faith to really believe. but thank You that its not by my faith which wavers all the time, but its by Your faith in me which never waver.

even at times where i've given up on myself, You have never given up on me. thank you for that abba. (:

Bittersweet Endings...

i used to wonder how bittersweet feeling feels like, cause its like bitter yet sweet at the same time? but i guess today i know from the movie Becoming Jane. its really a...bittersweet ending. i wonder if next time i'll name my son after you. :/ anyways, with KT (i still think it sounds really funny hahaha) around, everything feels so.........coke light. :p

well, last week was one of the best weeks ever since a long time because i get to meet everybody! thurs was spent meeting up with gracia, huizhi and serene for dinner! food was awesome, ambience was awesome but the company was the most awesome (: ill send you three the photos online! thurs was spent meeting up with ping and dawnieeee for dinner at ASTON and then nicky joined us for ice cream at ice cream chef. and i MISS them SO SO much..gosh feels so good to sit down and catch up with one another..hoho nicky says we should have a healthy day out to like east coast park or something the next time we meet up.. yes yes? :D met up with shaik on sat for dessert!

and sunday was churchday! it was really good cause pastor said that God told him that some of us actually came in the nick of time for service because that worry or something was going to prosper and we know who we are..and immediately i knew that i was one of them. throughout the past whole week, i've been thinking about something which is quite impossible for me to get an answer and my heart was really gripped with fear and it made me feel really distant from God..but i just felt something changed after service and though i wouldnt deny the fact that i sometimes still feel scared, i know that He will give me a revelation about it to change my mindset. yeap and the talk with charles was really good! it really opened up my eyes to some stuff which i've never seen or thought about.

YESTERDAY, i went for smu interview. i wont talk about the content cause if you want to know, ask me! (: but the professors are like one of the friendliest people around and they are like so approachable and nice! the journey there alone was scary and nervous though. :/ thank God He was always there for me. met up with bobo for lunch after that before heading off to work feeling very tired cause my energy were almost drained from the interview. hurhur.

well, blessed week to everyone and God bless!

note to Dad: Dad, i feel really honoured. that despite the fact that i really am nothing, you saw something out of me. that they would look for me. i really have nothing to offer in and out of myself. and sometimes i dont even know why i pop into their minds. but whatever it is, that love has never vanished no matter what, no matter how often i tried to deny or hide it. i dont believe that its by chance. i just know that no matter what, i feel really honoured.

crooked teeth - death cab for cutie

wanton mee + bubble tea + coconut&peanut cake + kids corner = LOVE. love the awesome awesome talks that we have, like totally. more of such talks okay! (:

there are times where i am excited to move up, yet there are times where i feel really reluctant to. i am really comfortable with where i am right now and for once, cg really feels like a family to me. i know that there is a time and season for everything and our Godly friendships does not end when we move up. i sure will miss everyone so im going to make the best out of everything now. yup. i think i'm bound to cry like mad during farewell (being the emo person i am duhhhh). just thinking about it makes me wanna cry alrdy. haha but i know that its all gonna turn out good. sooo......-smiles-

if its Your calling, then im sure You will bring it come to pass. amen.

some guys really need to learn how to talk to girls.

okay dokay, byeeeee! work starts tmr but overall, i had a really good rest! God bless!

colours of McCafe...

i slept for like 13 hours today! great rest i would say. no alarm clock ringing and with the phone on silent mode. sweeeeeeet. (:

simple dinner like this makes me happy! feels so good to talk, laugh and reminisce about the a levels days..heh and i miss the colours of McCafe. the days where we each have our own table to study, went to the arcade to play when we all feel stressed up, all of us trying to solve ONE math question...hurr..and not to mention, the day before my history paper where i cried SO badly and was for the first time so super stressed up over my exams and i really felt like giving up..how you guys really cheered me up and encouraged me not to give up and all..thanks guys..i really really appreciate it! (gracia, graham, huizhi, imran, shaik, weyzi) we rock yeah! (:

okay, i need to pack my room! its getting messy and this time round, i can really pack my room by throwing all the notes away! i think my room is going to be really clean after that. :D

i miss my class alrdy! espeically the girls! we really have to meet up soon okay! bye and God bless everyone!

When will i see your face again?

phew. i just applied for the uni courses. and there's so much info to read about. i tried to read every single detail that they gave at first, but as i move on from nus to ntu to smu, my eyes began to wander and wonder off. hurrr. right. but at least, everything's settled now. thank you abba that my future is secured in your hands. amen.

oh interestingly, i came across this qns on ntu application site whereby we could choose to write an essay on either one of the two topics given. it's kinda like an optional thingy, but i thought the questions were rather interesting. i like the one which they asked, 'Describe a person who has had an influence in you, and share with us why and/or how the person has influenced you.'. i was pretty surprised and amazed at whose the first person that appeared into my mind when i thought about this question. He is the one who said that we're both very very alike in the sense that we both think way too much and are very emotional people. I couldn't agree any better. (:

i'm looking forward to this week because i finally get to work five days! (i sound like a seriously deprived and overworked kid) so i hope i'll be able to meet up with everyone whom i've missed! alright, going to sleep now! and im not going to set my alarm clock this time round. just going to...sleep. :D goodnight and God bless everyone! cheers!

'hello sirrrr, can i help you?'
'i'm beyond help.'

everytime a customer tells me this, i cant help but laugh.

hello world.

hi hi hi hi hi. (:



life's been pretty good thus far and i'm really glad that the a levels is finally over and another new chapter begins. i really learnt a lot during these two years and i would say that the two years had indeed been a fruitful one. i really love 06A03. you guys are really the best i've ever had. and i miss you all already!

its time to catch up with friends whom i havent met for ages and also to be more active. hoho. (not that im not)

so cheers! will blog more laterz cause cause cause its my off day! weeeeeeeeeeeeezer. :p

thanks dad, for controlling my emotions and just taking over my feelings. you know its great, because from a third person point of view, i could really see so clearly. how silly i was to want to do the things that i want to do which will probably make me regret a lot. i never knew that was me until i saw myself in others. and im really thankful that you took over and that i made that decision. although maybe sometimes i still wish that it could turn out the other way, deep down i know that i'm really glad nothing happened. thank you so much.

hello world, i just screwed up my life. thank you very much.

today has been one roller coaster day, with all my emotions in a big whirl. i'm but afterall just a girl. but im glad that im feeling okay now. thank God for God and thank God for the friends. surprisingly, my work place people are so nice when i told them what happened. its like..i was just touched. so thank you.

its okay, time will tell. if you're the one, you'll still be the one five to ten years down.

meeting up with serene today was good! had dinner with her at our usual wanton noodle stall with bubble tea. -smiles- then we just walked around and then prayed before going home. it was really really good. (: meeting up with huizhi and gracia for lunch tmr and then friday, its the school peepos.. i miss my whole class alrdy!

so i guess, today i finally know the answer. why do i feel the same tinge of sadness that i felt three years ago, but by a totally different person this time round? they said it was probably brotherly love but i always wish you were more than a brother to me. but i guess to you, ill always be someone like a sister to you. i knew i messed things up that day. and i wonder if we'll still be close friends but everything just felt different. and it doesnt make things easier that you're YOU. i know that you'll always be there for me, but i dont think you believe that i could be there for you too and the feeling just dont feel good because i keep telling you how i feel and you dont. its like a one way traffic. but i guess today, now, i know. i assume and think too much again. and the feeling that i felt three years ago came back and it makes me wanna cry because i told myself i dont ever wanna feel like that ever again. continue hiding if you think you're good at it and if you think you dont make me feel sad. cause i think im pulling out because i dont wanna be a stumbling block to you.

okay, enough of emokid89@hotmail.com -breathes in and out- im going to be okay. yup. i know in good hands because i have a father who loves me more than anyone else in this world. (but for now i just feel like crying)

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands of those You had created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign
In heaven and earth exalted

I really want to worship You my Lord
You have won my heart
And I am Yours for ever and ever
I will love You
You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to You in adoration

one of my favourite songs of all time. the lyrics just pop into my mind when i woke up and i went to listen to it while lying in my bed, cosily tugged in. and i just savour every word in the lyrics slowly, letting it speak to me and it really convey what i want to tell abba. its funny how some old songs just cannot be compared to the new ones. its like these songs have been through with you the happiest and darkest moments of your life and they understand. the good thing is, you dont have to say anything. just listen and let it speak to your heart.

'if he's really the one, five to ten years down the road, he'll still be the one. nothing will change if it's planned by Me, just like how the call in your life is irrevocable.'

irrevocable - not to be revoked or recalled; unable to be repealed or annulled; unalterable.

coolz. ^_^

no one said that life was gonna be problem free eh? i find that sometimes i'm troubled by matters because i feel that i don't deserve the best. maybe its because of the past which made me feel this way and because of the insecurities i have. for now, i'm stuck because i dont know what to do. it's not right for me to do anything. actually i secretly wish that you knew but i guess thats not the way it is. so...nvm. i'm still learning.. (:

anyway, met up with gracia and huizhi today for dinner and to catch up. its always nice and comfortable to hang out with girl friends. there's just something special about girl friends and i really thank God for the girl friends that they have put in my life. its like, they understand what you are going through and you know that if you fall, they will be there to catch you and if you need to cry, they will cry with you. that's why im really thankful to daddy.

and i got my first decent pay! was like so excited when i got my pay!! -jumps around like a small girl- and i got my new specs..its making me feel giddy cause its new. hurr..and tmr's my off day! like yay! im just gonna laze in my bed and sleep and put my phone on silent mode so that i am going to have a good and blessed rest! (prays that the re-roofing progress thingy will NOT be on) alright, blessed day ahead to everyone! cheers! ciao! (:

went to watch juno today with kailin, sheryl and yan. its a really cool movie. like the plot and everything else. so yay! and it got me thinking..i'm sure i'll be able to find someone like that next time (: more cg outings!!

results are gonna be out on friday. seriously speaking, i'm not feeling any feelings now. its like this no feeling feeling. :/

daddy, thank you for showing me more and more of your love for me. i admit this year has been one of the most challenging years for me, with lots of new changes for me to adapt and you have expose me to some of my greatest fears. but at the same time, i'm really glad you never once gave up on me. if its only you that i can cling on to, then its you i am gonna cling on to.

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you, it's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

finally got to meet up with the girls today! (:

was supposed to meet them at 730pm at clarke quay and i wanted to take a one hour power nap BUT when i woke up and check my phone (it was around 815pm), i had like NINE miss calls from ping and i went like shit.. ha ha but i'm really glad that i still gotta meet up with you all (dawnieee, drey, ping and nickyyyy) and had dinner and just talked and laughed. yay! cool! meet up again next week before collecting our results! :/

cheers!

was just reading my blog post which i wrote two years ago, the day before receiving my O levels results. and this year, im praying the same prayer i did two years ago. sometimes its so easy to tell others what to do, but when you're in that situation yourself, you go like 'shucks'. that's why, all the more i want myself to be rooted in His Word which can never fail me. if His Word says He has a plan to give me a hope and a future, then it MUST be so.

working at mrs fields has enabled me to grow in more ways than one. from mopping the floor (ha ha) to talking to people to knowing people's stories. you know actually we are really blessed? it's just that we fail to see how blessed we actually are. sometimes things doesn't turn out the way we want them to BUT the ones i really admire are those who make the best out of it. it makes me want to learn more from them.

and i'm finally going to meet my girls tmr! (: yay! okay, so goodnight world. God bless.

the desires that He has placed in your heart, the passions that drive you in life

it's 3.30am now and i'm missing A3 and the girls so so much. haven't seen you all for what? decades? okay, maybe not that long, but i'm still missing you all. can't wait to meet up with all of you, like seriously. (i bet you all miss my jokes) (:

pictures be up soon! promise!

last sunday's sermon was by far one of the best sermons i've heard. it's so simple yet powerful and i just felt His presence so strongly, especially at the last part. i can't really describe how i felt at that point of time, but i saw the walls come tumbling down. it was as though the walls are so high they blocked my vision of everything and i'm encircled by the walls no matter where i turn to. but i saw it tumbling down when we shouted, and i saw sunlight shining in.

And I’ll wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

a song can speak to many different people in many different ways eh?

so hello people! i havent been blogging for quite some time i realised. hohum. life's been pretty good with the chinese new year, hanging out with besties and cg, working at mrs fields....the one thing i missed out on: my favourite SA peepos. i miss you guys so so much!! cant wait to meet up with you all this week! yay! (: ill post up pictures soon!!

i really thank God for the friends that He has put into my life. its amazing because I've learnt so much from them. and if there's one thing that i can hold on to when all else fail, its His word. there's something about it which gives me hope, not the kind of wishing hope, but the kind of hope you can expect because His word says so and because He doesn't lie. and when everything else seem hopeless and clueless for me, its only His word which comfort me and gives me hope. and im thankful for that.

its just not the same anymore. and im not expecting anything anymore. in other words, i've given up. and its okay. because i guess you're just not the one i thought you would be.

Where a little faith’s enough
To see mountains lift and move

ONE OF THE BEST SHOWS I'VE EVER WATCHED..



uh huh uh huh -nods head- its jumong - prince of the legend. ssssshhhhhh today's the last episode and i feel so sad. no more zhumeng to watch when i come home from tomorrow onwards. its seriously one of the best shows i've ever watched. 81 episodes (we have come a long way, havent we?) the tears, the laughters..... oh oh oh. its a really nice show!! edwin would totally agree with me cause he's the only other person who likes it very very much. we found another new recruit btw, jimmy!!

anyway, i think this week been really cool. i mean its a good break for me this week, just focusing on God's love for me and building a relationship all over again. and really, its when you focus on Him that all things will be added unto you... -SMILES- im going to work in the transit area starting from tmr onwards!! got my visitor pass today and i went to walk around the transit area and i think its really cool. like wayyyyyy cool you know? i really get to meet all sorts of people and yeah i think its gonna be fun! yeah i think God is revealing more about what He has installed for me in this life. like what kind of jobs im going to pursue and all so yeah i pray that He will open up more doors for me. i do not have to achieve great things to be happy you know? i have been focusing on the big dreams inside of me, the great things which i want to see happening in my life that i lost sight of the small things which makes me happy..but i'm really glad that daddy said 'welcome home, clarice'.

met up with dawnie, drey and ping today for dinner at marina square! (will post up pictures tmr becuase the file size are SO big) i cant remember the restaurant name even though i tried to remember the name. haha. yeap dinner was great. after that, we just hanged around the stairway taking pictures and just talking. simple but sweet..you get what i mean? its these simple yet meaningful things which makes me happy. so yeahhhhh thank God for that! (:

okay dokes, gotta go sleep now! goodnight and God bless!