sch today was relatively alright. we had a change of gp teacher and shes rather niceee. have to start doing our pwwww once again reallyyyy soon. only two out of the five ppl in our grp were present today cuz the rest were absent sooo i was looking thru the world cup website during pw XD england vS portugal ^^ gooooo england! ohhhh i went to check whens my chi oral and its on friday! the first day..hur i juz realised something. i was in 4e3 last yr and now im in 06A03. i had my oral with the e2 ppl last yr and im having my chi oral with the A2 ppl this year. wahhhhhh. and im one of the last few again, which means i have to WAIT. :/

after sch, me and qi went to study at her country club. halfway thru, we went to eat prata anddddd we saw some chi actor&actress acting. okay hahaha. the girl is really pretty lehhhhh. then we started talking&talking&talking. after that, we went back to study again. haha it was rather productive. i did my eng compo, studied AP&GP(finally!) and did a bit of math sums. after that i looked at the set of revision notes which the teachers gave? with all the diff sch sums? i juz looked thru it today. and i realised right, A LOT of topics is tested for maths lehhhhh. like of all the topics the only one which i kinda know is AP&GP. then i got scared and i think i better start on my maths revision soon. did a bit of econs too and i dont understand price elasticity of supply. :/ wahhhhhhh.

i went home at around 7 and qi sent me to the bus stop. she, being a reallyyyy nice girl, went back to study. haha overall, it was good! ^^ im juz gonna do my best and God will do the rest. haha. and for you,you&you who finished your common test and went to watch movies and walk and slack, ILL JOIN YOU GUYS IN TWO WEEKS TIME! wait for me okay! meanwhile, pls remind me to study! thanksss ah! XD

PS, i juz found out something : THIS YEAR, my promos ENDD on SIX OCTOBERRRR! YAY!!

how could you do this to the one you call as your friend?

lessons today were alright. rather productive. reached home at about 3 plus. took a nap from 4 to 630(yeah i always sleep) and then went for mrs khan tuition. did quite a lot of work and im beginning to get the hang of writing essays, but i think i need to practice more. the other two kids were watching the da vinci code and they dont understand whats going on either, juz like when i watched it. ^^

anyways, after that, mrs khan sent me home and we had a good talk. i juz told her how i felt towards JC life, and how i dont want my life to juz be normal. i want to do something special which would make my life meaningful and she gave me a lot of good advices. i told her im not sure what i wanna be when i grow up and she said some people might not even know what they want in life even until they are forty. they took up the job perhaps because they so happen to come across the job or because they have no choice. yeahhhh. and nahhhh im not gonna let my life go to waste. for now, i shall study and play but after As, during the six months holidays, ill somehow find a goal in life..if not, ill want to at least at that point of my life, enjoy life to the fullest fullest. haha yupp it always feel good to talk to her cuz she juz aspires me soo muchhh.

i think one of the best gift God can ever give to me in this life is to give me teachers who care(:

i think im gonna slp nowwww. goodnight world.

juz when i thought that maybe i could like you, you disappoint me. because ive said it once and ill say it again, I HATE GUYS WHO CANNOT REMEMBER MY NAME. and YOUUUUUU FUCKING CANNOT REMMEBER MY NAME AND IM TERRIBLY UPSET. thought that maybe you could like me too. but i guess not huh. you prefer huizhi. everytime its like that. im sooooooo fucked up. whyyyyyyyy. can you tell me why. sigh so ur juz being mr nice guy and i hate guys like that. ): FUCKKYOU.

anyways, today chi paper was a killerrrrrr and i mean it! my gawdddd. listening was okay but the paper was real tough. halfway thru, my brain suddenly switched off and i wanted to give up cuz i dont understand what the passage was talking about. got quite pissed. yeah then i juz closed my eyes and relaxxxx. managed to finish the paper in the end but i dont have high hopes or anything. :/

after that we gotta do some survey thingy and we were thinking of some simple survey but nooooo, we had to do some chi yu ws. then we had to listen to the meaning of the chi yu and then do again before finally doing our english survey. hurhur. i think that was rather interesting though. all of us were like feeling cheated when we saw the chi ws with all the chi yus. designed the noticeboard after that and lunch with qi, nic and jess. windri was there too.

and now, im home. i think i have fluuuu. kept sneezing in the hall. i think im gonna take the flu medicine and go to bed.

helloooooo. today went for first with gary, gracia, huizhi, nicco, serene, stan and sean. yeah then lunch at sakae sushi with gracia, huizhi, serene and nic. were discussing on which country we support for world cup. XD then we went to mng for a while cuz they were having this biggggg sale and serene got herself a top. after that we went to coffeebean to look for audrey and gary who were studying there. soooo i did study a bit of econs before i headed for math tuition. and i still cannot do maths. wahlaooooo.

well, so tmr is the start of sch as well as the start of common test/mid yrs. yeah but i love this holiday cuz its like one of the bestest holiday ive ever had. i totally havent touch history or math and my econs is like :/ buttttt. somehow throughout this holiday, ive realised much more and that there is more to life than juz studying. its like God has been speaking to me a lot throughout this whole holiday and i feel gooodd. now that ive played more than enough, i think i should start studying proper alrdy. yeahhh.

maybe if you try to look around you more often, you'll realise that actually what you perceive as bad might not be that bad after all. moreover, whats the worst that can happen? today, i saw the glow died in you and i realised that human beings change as time passes..i can never get the old you back again. and i guess the hope inside of me fade away completely. i think it would be just fine for us to remain as friends. but yet, today ive also felt that indeed, when one door closes, the other opens. and this makes me feel that the wait is gonna be all worthwhile(:

common test tmr! grace grace for it amen! ^^ off the bed, goodnight and God bless u ppl.

woke up at 10am today and realised that i was actually lateeeee alrdy so i msged chen pei and roy to say ill be reaching at 1130am. yeah actually we wanted to go town, but in the end we decided not to and headed to cathay near plaza sing. yeah ive never been there before, neither did chen pei and roy so its all our first times. before that, we had lunch at long john..


then right, i thought the ljs there had second level so i was like ehhhh we go upstairs and sit la! then roy and chen pei were like okay..AND WHEN I BOUGHT MY FOOD AND WANTED TO GO UP, I REALISED THAT THE SECOND LEVEL WAS ACTUALLY AN OFFICE. wahhhh, then chen pei and roy kept laughing. thanks for everything buddies, you both are the best! after eating, we walked to cathay.

caught cars and it was a superrrr good show la. walked around cathay too but the shops there werent fully opened yet so there was nothing much. after movie, we went to heeren to take neoss and then just walked around until we got tired and went home. XD yeahhhhh.

and TODAY, i did a bit of studying. yeah i read thru my chinese tb when i was going to meet chen pei and roy and when i was going home. sooooo i guess i wont be touching my chinese anymore until the day before the chi common test. anyway, grace grace for my common test. :/ im really scared that im gonna dooo real badly. actually all i want for my common test is to just PASS all my subjects. yeah. aiyahhhh but for now, im gonna slp alrdy. feeling damn tired. tmr is gonna be a busy day. anddddd i think i should read up on my gp notes tmr. goodnight and God bless(:

yesterday, i went for first with gracia, huizhi, serene and nicco(: yeah pastor lawrence preached. after that, me, serene and nicco went for lunch at pizza hut at marina square. they were playing some really weirdddd songs. nvm. shopped around for a while before i went for eng tuition. wahhhhh, got lost at toapayoh safra. stupid. yeah i didnt know where was the spiral room cuz ive never been there before so i got lost. like WHATever. after that was maths tuiton. surprisingly, marc sat beside meeeeee. maths wasnt productive cuz i kept talking to alpha and marc kept talking to his hc friends. super loud plsss. aiyahhhhh, BUT maths is really difficult lehhhh. cant seem to do almost all the questions. marcchan(3)06S72:/okayimjustkidding,noreally.

during maths tuition, laoshi was like telling us how usually for the common test, we USUALLY dont have enough time to finish our maths paper, thennnnnn..
M : that means i cannot get 100 marks alrdy!
me and Ms friend : STARES and go WHATever.
haha but well, its kinda cute i think? OKAY, NO?

today, went for tuition at mrs khans house from 10am to 1pm. i reallyyy like her tuition alot. haha especially now that zhuang, WEIEN and terence are in the same tution too. you know tution nevernever gets bored with weien around. XD then i just went home and slacked till nowwww. ohmygoshhh, i think i should really start studying. i always say that but have the 'nvm la, tmr then start' attitude and when tmr comes, the same thoughts come into my mind over and over again. !@#$% ^ CANNOT LAAAA.

and while walking home with zhuang today, we were just talking normally then...
zhuang: EH, i wanna go C******* lehh!
me: really ah? i bring you la!
:/ okay, my bad. but yeah it would be fun if she goes along, so maybe...just maybe we ALL can go together after common test/ mid yrs/ jct or whatever they call it ohkay. haha.


i pray for Gods wisdom and grace to like/enjoy/love studying. amen.

gracia and huizhi just left my house. goshhh, these are the ppl i definitely wanna spend the rest of my life with man...anyways, we went for bs together and sermon was reallyreallyreally good. pastor lawrence preached on how we sometimes focus too much on wanting that particular blessing that we forgot to focus on God and life becomes frustrated and annoying? yea i guess i was feeling like that and i realised that hey, its time to change my focus back to God. yeah and i love charissa and teacher kev. omg, they like bought poiful and gave it to me after service which made me really really touched(:

for now, i think i wanna go to bed. im tired alrdy. nights all and God bless.

haha yeah just watched the england vS trinidad and tobago match and YUP, england won 2-0 (:

happyyyyy la.

okay so this week has been like this,

- maths make up lesson on tues then breakfast with qi, nic, jess, dawn, val and marcus.
- watched almost loveee <333 with nic, jess, huiping and qi. haha quite a sweet show.
- met up with huizhi and gracia at tam macs.
- watched she's the man with gracia. haha good showww.
- maths lecture today, was half an hour late.
- had the WORST cab ride ever.
- lunched with nic, jess and marcus at pastamania at ps.
- watched barney performance while walking around ps to 'digest' our food.

yupp thats about all that happened soo far. quite a good week in all, BUT as usual, being me, i havent started on studying yet. i just packed my notes and i refused to start on econs yet coz our econs notes just makes me feel very demoralised. okay like WHATever. i think i shall start on my chinese first since orals on june somewhere somewhere. yup.

well, this past week have definitely been of one of the bestest bestest week in year 2006.

6th june(tues) - huizhi's birthday. if you want to know more details like what we do and stuff, go and read gracia's blog. haha but in all, we went to eat at pepper lunch and watched x-men 3. (i know im wols again) then we went to esplanade and walked ard and just slacked and took photos. then i went over for keith's stayover. thought a lot of ppl would be there but it ended up with only me, jane, jesse, mal, greg and keith. haha but still, it was funnnnnnn. did quite a lot of stupid stuff and just talking before slping at like around 5am.

7th june(wed) - woke up at like 11 and took a cab down to ws to meet huizhi and gracia cause it was gary's birthday! sooo we went to his house with the card and the cake, sneaked into his room while he was sleeping and attempted to pounce on him before he woke up but attempt failed. hurhur. yeah but he was really surprised and we were happy. heehee. well, stupid bum thought he was dreaming when he saw me entering the room. hurhur. went home after that for a while before meeting some of A3 peeps at downtown. yupp class chalet. haha it was funnn once again and then we had stayover.

8th june(thurs) - went home to sleep and sleep and err still sleep. haha slept almost the whole day. hurhur.

fri, went to sch for econs lessons for like 3 half hours. could have rot there. yeah then some of the classmates and me went to eat at pepper lunch at town before having ice creamm. sat campus with huizhi and gracia. AND yesterday first with them againnnn. haha never get sick of them do i? darlene led praise and worship and sermon was good i tell you. yupp.

so i guess its studying time starting from nowww.

sometimes i feel really really emo and i wish i could stop feeling the way im feeling now.i know where my problems lies but i dont know how to handle, much less solve it. how could you ask the memories to go away just like that? it makes me upset to think that theres something which ill NEVER be able to have no matter how hard i pray/wish/work for. it also makes me upset because honestly, i dont like what im doing. the life that i want is totally opposite from what im doing now. and because i cannot see the plans You have for me, it just makes everything more upsetting. i hate the fact that this is a dream never to come true...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHUANGHUIZHI, MY BESTEST SISTER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD(:

right so i woke up at about 9am plus cause qi called around 9pm the night before. she asked if im meeting the rest for breakfast at macs and i was like huh?what macs? then i SUDDENLY remembered. i gotta reach sch by 10 to clean up the tents and stuff! hurhur. sooooo OKAY. reached sch on the dot and spent FOUR hours cleaning up the tents and gathering all the stalls. tough job i tell you. but its all worth it la.

went to parkway with siying after that to eat and wow, that place really changed ALOT. its been quite some time since i last went there and now, parkway is totally revamp! after eating abit, we went to buy her mum a belated birthday present and siying got her mum a niceeee bag.

met up with gracia after that at tm to buy the ingredients needed for huizhi's birthday surprise and then we went to eat dinner. haha as usual, she was being mad and cranky. went to my house after that and we started doing our stuff. XD

took some breaks in between to do things like thissss...


and the result of our hard work...




haha yes, i know its niceeee. we spent like 3 hours doing it okay. haha finished it at around midnight and then we headed to huizhi's house to give her the surprise BUT AIYA, she kinda caught us but never catch us totally la. so its still considered a success XD sang her a bday song together with gary on the phone.

one of the cakessss.


and of course, the besties took photos..




and then huizhi became a VERY HAPPY GIRL.



in all, i hope she had a great birthday surprise! we're gonna go out later and yeah i feel sleepy alrdy. soooo i think i shall go to bed. God bless ya all. goodnight(:

hello people! im back from mt ophir trip! (:

the trip was GOOD *two thumbs up* learnt ALOT of things which i doubt ill ever learn if im not in odac. it made me realise alot of stuff too. it was damn tiring climbing up the mountain but throughout the trip, you have friends to be with you and to encourage you on, teachers to talk to and just bonding with your odac mates. its like your not the only one whose tired. everyone IS. and then when you reach the SUMMIT,



LIKE THIS...



i tell you, the sense of achievement is definitely there! and the feeling is superb. i think this trip to mt ophir made me reflect a lot on life and it brought me closer to God cause i was really scared ill fall and i was mentally and physically tired. it also makes you feel that your efforts did not come to waste and everything is just WORTH it. (:

sooooooooo in short, the mt ophir trip is super GOOD.

went out with huizhi, gracia and gary to catch the da vinci code today (i know im wols) but yeah i dont think the show was good. i prefer the book. haha. gary went home after that and then we went to have dinner and just talked a lot. i miss the both of them like fudgeee. now, im back home. im gonna go to church later on. yupp God bless ya ALL!

P.S, i took PICTURE with nice legs (: (: (: