haha, i think im into this whole korean drama thingy again. HOHO. the show 'MY GIRL' is reallyyyyyyy good. ohmygawd. makes me wanna cry and laugh. i like both the actors. they're both so cute. ^-^

(:

primary school class gathering on wed was pretty good (: haha DUH, what ya expect. i organised it OKAY. night at the museum was funny and i liked it. heh. you dumb dumb give me gum gum. hoho. then it was dinner at marina bay and lotsa fun catching up with everybody.

the GUYS.


thats part of the class whom i still have their contacts. hahaha. and so many of them are in mjc. :/ christmas was good too. hehehe. spending time with close friends and family couldnt make it any better. rachel's back to canada and i heard she's feeling sick. hope shes feeling much better now. hurhur.

less than a week to sch reopening!!!

NVM, before that, A3 outing first! XD

Shout praises to the Holy One
God makes us strong we'll see His will be done
From the highest place
He came to save us
We stand in the power of His name
Salvation's work in our lives proclaim,
Living from the kingdom of hope within us

Shine Your light
Be that city of light

We're gonna shout out loud
It's time to let it out
It's Your life in me for all to see
Cause' our God reigns always
Till the end of days
We’re gonna stand strong, stand tall
Cause Jesus Christ is Lord of all

Colours flowing through my life
I'm not the same now my heart desire
To see the whole world come to know You
I'll shine my light
Be that city of light

We're gonna shout out loud
It's time to let it out
It's Your life in me for all to see
Cause' our God reigns always
Till the end of days
We’re gonna stand strong, stand tall
Cause Jesus Christ is Lord of all

Shout shout we're gonna let it out
Shout shout we're gonna let it out
Shout shout we're gonna shout Jesus is Lord

Shine Your light
Be that city of light

We're gonna shout out loud
It's time to let it out
It's Your life in me for all to see
Cause' our God reigns always
Till the end of days
We’re gonna stand strong, stand tall
Cause Jesus Christ is Lord of all

He's the Lord of all
He's the Lord of all the Earth
Cause' our God reigns always
Till the end of days
We’re gonna stand strong, stand tall
Cause Jesus Christ is Lord of all

this is currently my favorite song. everytime i hear this song, i feel a sense of victory. (:

MERRY CHRISTMAS!


(:


go watch this! http://www.furryfish.com/gallery.html# ----> a furry christmas - the one with the black sheep.

here are some pictures i took from hm6..haha i realised that its quite little photos actually because im quite lazy to take them. hee.

thats the back view from my room. its quite err..empty.
thats my room! room 703 and the person standing outside is actually eunice, my roommate (:
thats eunice and me. shes really nice, easy going and friendly.
thats on the finale night where we had to dress up. my cg's theme was punk office wear. XD
the whole jc south cg! except for eunice cuz she was not feeling well.
weeeeeee. lionel and meeeee (:

jc south girls and still without eunice.
the bestie since childhood (:

kaiyannnn!

gary and kanna. haha im like standing beside two muscularrrr man.

kaiyan and denise. two of my favorite ppl in dare (:

ruoyun (:

me, eunice and kailin.and finally, the whole jc south cg! XD

yeahhhh. and thats the photos taken with my favorite people during hm6. missed out some though. heh. it was good seeing all the old friends again. somehow, they just put a smile in my heart. our group was called billabong when we played games and i really liked our cheer! it goes like this...

B for Billa

B for Bong

B for BillaBong

Billabong BONG!

BILLABONG!

it has this very bongy feeling. hahaha. today, i went christmas shopping with rachel and it was quite fruitful! hee. i just hope i have enough time to buy ALL the presents i wanna give to all my love ones! then met up with parents and brother for dinner and went to the new ikea to walk around. the place is hugeeeee. so yeahhhh thats about all. God bless ya all. (:

*waves* im back! (: (: (:

HM6 was definitely a blast. it was my first history maker camp and boy, the experience was definitely different.

im glad that i get to know my cg ppl better and it feels great to just feed on the word of God everyday.

too much to say, but lazy to write it here. hehehe.

now, its time for CHRISTMAS!

churchcamp in a few hours time.

must sleep. need sleep. want to sleep.

NOWWWWW.

people, dont miss me! you know who you are! *SMILES*

HELLO PEOPLE!

my grp name has been changed to BILLABONG! XD

actually was supposed to meet serene for bs but then kanna secretly followed us (HAHA) and we bum into him twice. so in the end, bs was with serene, serene's ma and pa, kanna and junxiong. SERENE SEAH as usual, was being a bummy. TSKTSK.

bs was good today (:

me: at least your group name is better than mine, mine is like the worst la

kannan: whats your group name? THIS FASHION AH?

when other jc clusters feel that their group names are bad, they hear mine and they immediately feel much better. THANKS AH PEOPLE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

its 5.27AM now and im awake (: fully awake. hohoho. i have no idea whyyyyyyy. maybe its because i didnt do much in the day or maybe its because im enjoying the too-excited-for-churchcamp syndrome. hahaha.

and i realised that i actually have a set of naruto's cd set which was UNOPENED (!!!) while i was looking through my letters XD and stuff. so yeah i watched like eight episodes of the show. and zzz the eight episodes which i watched right, its damn niceeeeeee okay! im like WOW. haha. and i actually cried a bit cuzzzz its so touching. but then again, u know i find that anime are kinda long winded? i mean they used like eight episodes to finish ONE battle. wahlao ehhhh ONE battle okayyyy. and then im listening to edison chen's album now. and and and since its the christmas season, i just thought ill put the links up in red and green. hohoho.


i think im very random today.

"but then why do you want to be a great great great great great grandmother?"

"maybe cuz it just shows how great you are la."

okay, im sorry but i thought this is really funny. hahah. i can imagine a lot of people shaking their heads. hoho. ITS FUNNY OKAY. and its even funnier to hear boys, especially weien, talk about girls. TSKTSKTSK.

met up with nicky and jess today and boy, do i miss the both of them A LOT. hurhur. the both of them, still being the same old them. HAHAHA. (the most relaxing CIP ever ah!) now im missing qi too but shes in krabi. i really hope shes having fun! nvm, we'll all go out after im back from churchcamp. teehee.

huizhi and gracia are in touch rug camp. bet they're gonna miss me lots. XD

these few days havent been exactly good for me even though i had good company.

you know sometimes shit really do happen. and you ask God why. why you of all people. its like, you really really look forward to things only to be disappointed in the end.



like almost every single fucking time.


maybe its just me. im never exactly good in anything. im just AVERAGE. freaking AVERAGE in everything and it sucks. in my life, studies, sports, friendship or whatever. sometimes i really feel very pathetic.

went for jess youth camp bbq today. it was overall super good.

because of the praise and worship. gosh, i have never felt God's presence so real for quite a while. and i've never cried so much for a long long time. yeah. its like pastor talked about the spirit of rejection and im like wow..just what i needed. because of that particular thing, i have been feeling like shit a lot lately. it kinda makes me think all the negative thoughts. and when the leaders prayed for me, i cant help it but cry like a baby. they prayed and spoke blessings into my life and stuff.

and no words can express the peace which i felt after that. and its not like words can express the whole experience. it was just simply awesome. i know things have changed, but i dont know what or where or when. i just knew it. because GOD is LOVE.

thanks jess for inviting me. i really appreciate it lots. (: food, company and presence of God was great. hee. i really like jess church cuz its small and really, everybody knows everybody well. and they are so friendly and nice (: but it also made me realise that no matter where i am, daddy is always there. because at first i thought it was just gonna be another usual session, but before i know it, poof there He was. it felt like my own church camp and like it could last forever..His presence was really strong and i just could bask in it forever. i really love tonight. really, nothing beats being in the house of God because it satisfies my needs and wants and my cry and hunger for this thing called love.

BTW, my phone is spoilt SUDDENLY and so ALL MY CONTACTS ARE GONE. NICEEEEE. if your reading this, pls send me your name together with your number please? XD thank you! hehehe.


CHANGE IS GOOD.


goodnight.

TODAY, i followed my brother to the childcare again, until 2pm. as usual, the kids are lovable. learnt how to play heart attack without using cards and using hands! (:

after that, went home to change and then met chen pei to study. haha supposedly. i thought we were going to the library so i only brought my history qns paper to do research there but then the dear girl changed her mind last min. so we went to coffee bean in the end. heh. had a bit of lunch at taka and i saw SAW shamir. before that, we went to popular to get some stuff and i think i made her 'lose' 15 bucks. hahaha. but then again, CHENPEI, ITS ALL ABOUT HONESTY AND INTEGRITY. (go read your ngeeann foolscap k!)

she did her work, but i had no work to do. so i took a short nap and then she introduced me to a game called CRAZYTAXI and its really CRAZY. OMG. eh, damn fun la. i was so engrossed and played so skillfully that the com hanged for ONCE and it ran out of batt in about 30 mins when it was supposed to run out of batt only in an hour. after that, i read the newspaper and copied an article out. heh. went to heeren at about 8.30pm and she and i both got some stuff and then dinner = wanton noodle + bubble tea = satisfied clarice.

SO, it was good okay. heehee.

on a totally random note, you know sometimes i really hate being in a place where i know everybody but yet i dont know anyone. you know the feeling really sucks when i dread it so damn much. i keep telling myself that the next time it would be better and then the next time it just become worst. and i wonder is it me or is it me? its not that i yearn for any attention but maybe you could at least use your eyes and see that this poor girl here does exist and spare a thought for her feelings? and i feel like this is just gonna get worst.

seriously, i cant wait for this to end because i really feel very tortured.

TODAY is seriously a very meaningful day for me indeed.

WHY?

because i followed my brother to the childcare. he was like crying and didnt wanna go so i, being the nicest sister ever, followed him to the childcare from 9am to 6pm. bye 9 hours. but it was quite fun. hahah. we went to watch happy feet (again) and then had lunch at macs, playing at the playground, teaching the kids how to DRAW, taking photos (they wanted to take with me), watching them learn hip hop dance, playing soccer and lastly, playing hide and catch. and they didnt wanna me to go yet when my mum came. hahah. sign of grace and favor YO. ^_^

wahhhh, damn nice. some of the kids are like really really cute. hoho. and i thank you daddy for the grace and favor to get along well with them (: really, i dont think i will get along well with them without you. so im a happy girl overall today though i was quite grouchy at first. i have a soft spot for kids who goes 'jie jie, can you help me......' (in their sweetest voice) i cant say no. haha. yup think i shld go get a good rest now. and best thing is, mummy says she dont mind giving me money for helping her look after isaac. heh. byeeeee!

PS, i finally found people who truly appreciate my drawing and coloring! HEE HEE HEE.

two little burnt girls.

nonethess, kayaking was good today. haha finally got one star kayaking. (: but as usual, i feel giddy all over again. so im going to bed now! goodnight world.

dare grad was today and denise asked me to help out with it. boy, saw peeps who used to be in the same cg as me when i was in dare and some others all graduating now. so sweet. made me think of how last year, i was like one of them with the rest of my batch peeps getting to know campus for the very first time in my life. and i know that during this one year, ive grown and learnt much more from God.

so we played games and mingled with them. my goodness, theres this one game whereby 5 ppl had to finish up two tubs of ice cream and it was like a competition to see which grp could finish up the ice cream faster. so everyone was like chionging to see who could finish the ice cream faster. ice cream torture i tell you!! i dont think ill touch ice cream for at least a week. but then again, i think i always change my mind. haha.

after that, i went home and got ready for cg. hee. made sandwiches for potblessing. then i met up with the rest of the cg for potblessing at eunice's house. the world is like so super small i tell you, because this girl called sheryl in my cg..shes in the same class as shamir now and used to be in the same class as qi during first three months. im like wow. so qi said if she had stayed in cj, then she probably be in the same class as shamir..but then again, everything would be oh so different.

cg was good. we discussed about a lot of weird qns and it kinda feels good to know that at least your not the only one who thinks 'weirdly' because at one point or another, we all ask ourselves weird qns. we got too carried away and thus we didnt manage to finish today's cg message. but it was still good anyhow. then rach and me went to meet huizhi at ang mo kio mrt station (makes me think of jess suddenly) and rach went back home with her parents. me and huizhi wanted to take train but the train stopped at toapayoh (now it makes me think of nicky) and told all of us to get off..so we didnt manage to get to city hall and had to take a cab home in the end.

i really really think that this world work in a very unpredictable manner and sometimes i really think that boys are doltish. haha okay, goodnight and God bless you world.

wow, i just received an email from denise which was sent by zj and it just answered all which im going thru right now.

"You know sometimes in life you meet people who disappoint, judge or even hurt you. And over some time your heart might put up "fences" to make sure that you don't get hurt. You don't dare to love again because you don't want to get hurt. You don't dare to be open again because you don't want to be judged.

But you know what? You don't have to fear. You don't have to put up "fences", you don't have to isolate yourself. Because Daddy is mighty to save. haha. He is really is! Daddy is a wise Dad. He gives you favor with everyone you meet but the favor comes with protection.

2 Corinthians 12:9And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Do you know sufficient ( G714) in Greek means::
1. to be possessed of unfailing strength
(a) to be strong, to suffice, to be enough to defend, ward off
(b) to be satisfied, to be contented

haha. When you're strong in yourself, Daddy want to but He can't protect you. Daddy didn't ask you to enjoy the weakness and wallow in it but in the midst of your weakness, know that His Hand is mighty to save. His Hand is strong and able to place that favor and blessing upon you even when you are in that valley."

thank you for speaking to me daddy. amen.