the trouble with never is never never works.

op dry run 2 tmr.
chinese As in three days time.

on a heavier note, i still cant seem to find my entrypass for chinese As.

okay, before i start this post,

HAPPY 17TH NICOLE TOH!
hope you liked the presents (and yes i know you do)
(:

morning started off damn badly. my maid woke me up at 645am and im like !!!! im LATE alrdy. so i thought maybe ill go to sch after math lecture but NO, miss wong called and said i MUST reach sch by 810am to see the principal and all. then she say cannot be late ah. then im like shucks! omgzzz. really pressed for time and i seriously felt like crying. yeah but in the end, managed to reach sch on time and had some principal talk. Daddy has really shown me His grace this time round. like what nicky said,'never knew TWO points was SO important' hurhur. now i know.

math lecture. econs lecture. then me, jess and nicky went to cine to watch the prestige. its a super good show i tell you. was kept in suspense all the way till the end of the show. qi didnt join us because shes not feeling well. EH, PS LA. then juz walked ard town and ate with the two i-cannot-find-words-to-describe girls. LOL (loads of loveeee) yeah then nicky gotta go homee. walked ard somemore with jess and then we decided to go home because for once, jess legs felt tired and she was gonna kockout any moment.

so by right, i was supposed to go home too. BUT by left (i see nicky's eyes rolling), i dont know why but i landed myself up in church, for bible study on a thursday evening, alone. haha. the feeling of going to church alone came back and it felt not bad. heh. anyway, service was good but the praise and worship part, was excellent. nothing can beat that. and then i went home a happy girl(:

God bless ya all.

shalom
shalom
shalom shalom
sar shalom...

hello world.

i have no idea why i cant reply on my tagboard so im just gonna reply here. haha. cui, yeah the grp photo is cute. i mean you must see whose in the photos right? ^_^

monday morning was spent doing OP dry run 1. omg, i got so nervous during the answering of qns session that i stumbled on my words and my answers were kinda crappy. hurhur. nvm, gotta try to do better for dry run 2 next wed. :/

after that, met up with chenpei the lameshitgirl to celebrate our birthdays. hohoho. had dinner at the village/marche and then tcc. super freaking full pls. but i miss that girl. man, shes doing so freaking well in poly while im struggling to get promoted! ahmygawddd. the next time we meet up, we go k-box k? then we'll go study together. heh-heh-heh. cant wait to see you the next time! had a great time with you(:


TUESDAY was spent with these two ah mas aka jess and qi.. (with nicky ps-ing us because of her bowling training)
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playing combat skirmish. it is the only painless real-life outdoor combat simulation game in Singapore and its so freaking fun like mad. omg, i had a real time of my life running around fort canning trying to kill my opponents (qihui). felt as though i was a soldier fighting a war for my country. HAHAHA. but it was really damn fun. we signed up for the membership and i tell you right, next time we must play combat skirmish as part of class gathering. CONFIRM 100% FUN AND LAUGHTHER. hanged around with jess youth grp after that and i guess ive learnt a lot. her youth group is small and cosy and its like everybody knows everybody. new creation is now getting so big that sometimes its kinda hard to even know who are all the people in campus itself. hurhur but i think its nice to have a whole new feel of things which ive heard people say of, but never really experienced it myself.

AND TODAY morning, met up with the pw grp members to discuss about OP. was super pissed off at first because i walked to my bus stop ONLY to find my wallet lying happily at home. sfhdkghd;fsgdfkl!!! okay nvm. our grp is the best. we're supposed to meet at 9am and everyone reached at about 10am. so our next meeting would be at 9am which also mean it will start at 10am XD

went back to sch for chinese with laoshi. laoshi is always so super funny. hurhur. odac at 3pm. learnt how to tie the ropes and stuff for rock climbing and mr ho is really niceeeeee. hes like so patient in teaching me and qi what are the things to take note of for rockclimbing. then it started to rain heavily. after odac, me and qi went home AND RIGHT, i tell you i love the rain but im damn scared of lightning!! and to top it off, qi is also super scared of lightning and we had NO umbrella. so in the end, we PRAYED for no lightning to strike us when we cross the road and grabbed each others hands and ran to the mrt station. :X

okay, God bless and byezzzzz.

OUCH, im having backacheeee.

haha anyway, theres a thanksgiving board in school to write about who we want to thank and yada yada..so ive decided to write......
HEE. after sch, went for tao huay with qi, nicky& jess. lotsa laughter and jokes. heh. XD

thennnn, we went dragonboating for odac. it was really fun and kinda scary for some parts. but overall, i enjoyed myself a lot.

qi, me, siying and mel. i really like them a lot in odac (:

mmm the haze is quite bad as u can see..

the dragonboats. hurhur.

siying, yuda, lester, ME& weihao.

ziyi, qi, lester, hakim& edmund.

weihao, lester, ziyi, edmund, ME and hakimmm.

lester, me, qi, serene and edmund.

edmund, ziyi, lester, serene, yuda, weihao and hakim.

then went for dinnerrrrr and ate a lot. felt superr full.

TODAYYY morning and afternoon was spent at the gp seminar thingy at 4th level. and it was super good. especially what coach meddie shared with us. it was so relevant to me. and then i got prayed for and it was about the spirit of dominance. the presence of God was definitely there and though i didnt cry much, in my heart, i felt the peace and i know that things are not gonna be the same anymore. cant make it for lunch with caregroup because i gotta go meet my pw grp members to do pw! haha and so i was an hour late because service ended kinda late. heh.

did our slides and now, all we have to do is to write our scripts and do a good job on monday. come on grp members, we can do it! YO. JIAYOU. and then we had a mini 'group bonding' session. hahaha. decided to take photos with nicky's bro new imac. eh, i tell you, its damn cool OKAY. its just like errrr..taking neoprints? so fun alright! then we watched tv prog together. hee. niceee.

ALRIGHT, I LOVE THE PICTURES. HAHAHA.

first tmr. goodnight and GOD BLESS YA ALL. (:

FINALLY,

hello people, hello world. (:

havent blogged for a week and SO MUCH has happened. this week passed by so slowly. cant really remember what happened EXCEPT that i was on the verge of retaining. and i tell you, this feeling is no joke. its the worst fucked up feeling i've ever felt. say on the average i cried like 3 times a day, cant seem to put my heart into doing anything and felt so so so upset. it was like i would do anything and i mean ANYTHING to get promoted. and it doesnt help when your teacher ask you to be mentally prepared for the WORST. and its even WORST when you know that you cant do anything at all, except to wait. its like living in uncertainties every single day while waiting for the decisions to be made. part of you knows that you wont get retained but theres always another part of you which says, ' WHAT IF...just what if...' then what am i gonna do? and every time teachers mentioned the word 'results' or something to do with it, tears cant help but well up in your eyes and before you know it, your crying again. A LOT of thoughts came running through my mind and i just wished that i had another chance. if only. id make sure i grab the chance and cherish it. i really felt like all doors have closed on me and even though i tried telling myself that i have other alternatives, at the end of the day, who am i kidding? i know deep within me that the only way i want things to turn out would be to get me promoted.

THANKFULLY, Jesus was always there for me. all the friends who knew about this matter all pointed me back to God and they never fail to remind me that He loves me dearly. i knew that although i couldnt really take in their advices, it was clear that the only solution i had was to cling on to Jesus. thanks especially to serene, huizhi, denise and wanling. ANDAND qi, nicky, jess for crying with me when i bawled like a small baby and also to 06A03 plus other ppl who were really concerned. weeeeeeeeee clarice is reallyreally touched. like stan said, 'it would be a good learning experience for you at the end of the day' and indeed, i guess it was? but i NEVER EVER EVER wanna feel like that EVER again. AMEN.

anyway, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO CHENPEI!
thanks for being sucha joy in my life!
CJC buddy, who ps-ed me halfway! hurhurhur. no la, just kidding alright.

and qi is the number 1 ah ma.
nicky is the number 2 funniest girl evereverever.

eating tao huay could produce comic relief too.
"whats the soup ah?"
actually referring to the peanut dumplings in the soyabean milk.
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i have never seen a girl who doesnt know that the syrup of the tao huay will sink to the bottom. so this girl ate the tao huay on top and left the syrup to sink at the bottom. and im like 'woah, you dont like the syrup? its at the bottom.' and then this girl said 'oh, no wonder its so bitter.....' i stared at her and her face changes immediately. BUT MY FACE WAS EVEN BETTER.

TOTALLY 100% @_@

but what to do? thats the way i like my nicky done. (:

God bless ya all.

sch today was quite bad. got back some of our results and some classmates were upset by the results. makes me feel really sad when i see them sad too. BUT cheeeeeeer up people! we're gonna work harder alright. nods.

after sch, went to meet serene at ps and actually we wanted to watch a movie. but then the timing werent good so we ended up having lunch at pepper lunch and then we just slacked and bummed around. talking nonsense and laughing our way off. heh. walked a lot too. haha. then we went to raffles place to get a niceeeeeee balloon for qihui. cuz shes feeling really upset and i didnt know what to do so thought of an idea to get her a balloon. lol. then nicco came and i wanted to take a nice photo of the three of us. but the photos that we all took werent nice so i kept forcing nicco to take a shot of three of us for like mmm 10 times? hehe and he looked like he was gonna kill me anytime man.

then they went for bs and i went to find qi to give her the balloon. dotz dotz dotz. tuition after that! haha mrs khan and all celebrated terence and my bday together (: weeeeeee as usual, tuition is damn funny. AND RIGHT, weien told us a joke. he said a bird was flying in the air when he laid an egg. but why didnt the egg break?
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can you guess why? aiyahhhh, i tell you la.

because right, the bird was wearing underwear! HEHEHE. okay (i see nicky, jess and qi rolling eyes at me)

fri, sat& sunday are gonna be busy days. hohoho. alright, God bless ya all ^_^

only 6 people came to sch today. heh. me, qi, jess, audrey, jesse& mal. so we decided to skip the amazing race and met up with nicky. headed to cine to catch a movieeeee. john tucker must die. haha the show's pretty good i must say. (: lunch at long john and then cabbed back to school.

had odac exco/committee meeting after that. and then me and qi went for meeting for the tourguide thingy. haha so yes yes me and qi will the two out of the many tourguides on sa openhouse day. 9am to 4pm. heh. odac after that and we played games. the games were all quite funnnnnn. heh. and then right mr lam kept making fun of me and qi. he said how come we are gonna be the tourguides?! and we were like why? cannot hur? then he said, 'later the people all cannot see you both.' dhgdlfjghsdgsd;gj;sdjg;dkgsdkhfg!!!! thanks ahhhhhh.

after odac, tao huay with qi aka fatimah (mr lam called her that heehee) and then home sweeeet home. normal lessons tmr. ahhhhhhhhhhh. long day long day. gp, econs, chi, history, econs. welcome back.

PS, im always here if you need someone to talk to, small boy. ^_^

alright, first of all, PROMOS ARE OVER! haha, oh boy i have been waiting for promos to end like so so so long ago. anyway, chem was bad as usual, but i did attempt to study a little. so yeahhhhh. after chem, we had briefing on pw. ohmygawd. intensive pwpwpw&chichichi. rahhhh, anyway yesterday was also my SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY!

hohoho. thanks to ALL who wished me happy birthday thru smses, (huizhi, serene, weihao, yaoguang, kezia, weixiong, mok, spencer, wilson, huiqin, cui, jane, huiping, yuda, vic, zhuang, wanling, teepeng, mummy, kenneth lim, karmum, alice, amelia, gracia, pong, gary, shirlynn, angel, lilian, sandra, nicco, zihao, leongs family, zhen kai, mark, reuben, brother chua, godma, tricia, godpa, and leon) thru frienster, msn, phone calls and of course those who gave me presents! AND EMAILS! (weixiong and fav cuzzie racheltanswee***) thanks michael who called at 12am on 6th oct and CHEN PEI who called at 12am on 7th oct! and those who wished me happy belated birthday today! hahaha.

thanks to 06A03 who celebrated my birthday with meeeeeee!

thanks alpha for the noteeeeeebook and the postcard! haha imma use the notebook for math next time! dont quit math tuition k! my tuitionbuddy! lets work hard together!

thanks cui for the postcard! i appreciate it lots!

thanks qi, nicky & jess! heh. for buying me the cake, giving me the box full of presents! haha im reallyyyyy happy! yeah the food, cd(which im listening to now), the top and the AHEM AHEM. hee. life in sch would be really different would you guys! (: love ya all. thanks for making a difference.

me, qi, jess and nic went to town to eat and walk around haha. took neoprints! ohmygawd. at first they looked so tired but went really high while taking the neoprints! hahaha climbing and posing to take pictures. wanted to catch a movie but too bad, the timing werent right. so yeah then we all squeezed unto one bench and juz sat down together, cosyyyyy baby. heh. shopping and walking till our legs were breaking. ha. weeeeee had a great time with you guys! thanks for everything! XD

after that, i met up with serene the bum. ate and talked like theres no tmr. hehehe. then we walked around. and i was trying to bully her and she was like 'wo ren wo ren' and it was damn funny. actually she wanted to come my house and she even look up the street directory ONLINE to check what bus comes to my house. haha but plan spoilt. sorry babe. she gave me this really cuteeeeee cupboard kinda like thingy and wrote me a poem! like woah, haha how romantic but she say cant show to anybody. XD thanks serene darling for making my bday sweet and nice and gullibly filled with you!

then then i met up with zhuanghuizhi the sister! heh. sorry i kinda spoilt your plan too! ate at swensens and she sang me a birthday song alone&along with the ice cream. bravo! haha. she gave me a shirt and a card made by herself. preeetty. then we walked and chilled at starbucks and talked lots. and she cabbed me home. haha ending my seventeenth birthday perfectly. thanks jiejie for everything too! for being so patient and thoughtful. im really blessed to have a sister like u! heh. hope u had fun too!

thanks brother chua for the card!

and thanks to relatives for the angbaossss and the superdupernice lana cake! XD

so yeah that ended my day! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! couldnt ask for more. most of all, thank u heavenly father for making my day great. heh. ohhhhhh, and im still accepting presents and wishes if you want to give me any! XD

and the haze is killing people. i hope it rains tonight and washes the haze away. God bless.

ah, i juz woke up. from a headache ): i dislike headaches like mad. it hurts like crap. arghhhhh. oh well, at least i had a good sleep.

anyway, econs was sfj;fjsd;fjsdkjfdlgh!!!! tough la. the essays were tough and the case study was tough also!! zzzomg. and the hall was super freaking hot. i dont like sitting in the middle of the hall cause it makes me sweat like mad. with the tie. tian ah.

history tmr. am pretty scared. hurhur. 3 essays to finish in 2hr 15mins. woahhhhhh. nvm, grace and wisdom to do history. heeeeeeeeee.

oh, i went on to friendster juz now and my pri sch friend sent me this msg, "Omg...Look who is there..Clarice!!! Wow, u look like a decent lady now..Hehe glad to meet my old friend here.."

I MEAN I DONT LOOK LIKE A DECENT LADY WHEN I WAS YOUNG MEHHHHH.

haha k la random stuff. but these random stuff are making me happy in the midst of promo. okayzzz byezzz and hello to nationalism, globalisation of cold war and the end of cold war. come on i love u guyzzz so love me too alright!

oh and when i say i wont be going online, i mean i wont go MSN. OKAY. THXBYE.

hahaha aiyahhhhhhhhh sorry ppl i knew i cannot resist the com. hehehe.

anyway, i juz woke up. thank goodness paper starts at one. heh. and mmm im going to school soon. i know you people wish me all the best right, haha and that i will do well. amen. thank youuuuuuuuu cuz when two or more agree, it shall be done ^_^

okay la, that was damn random. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i like to eat ice cream to cheer me up when i feel stressed/ when i feel like my brain has no more space to memorize the info, especially chocolate ice cream. XD

alright, gtg. hahah. byezzzz and God bless ya all!

PS, did i mention before i really really like the rain? because............theres a secret between me and Jesus about the rain. (;

econs tmr,
then history,
math,
chem

and im done with promos. heh. will juz try my best and God will do the rest. amen.

meanwhile, i dont think ill be coming online until friday. (though i think i will come online) hahaha. okay la, byezzzzzzzz.

first today with serene, vanessa, jia ying and kanna. passed stan the graphical calculator so he had better do well with my GC. XD heh. sermon was really good although as usual, i doze off for ten mins. haha. and today, i realized that its really when you focus on God that the things which you desire will come after you instead of you going after them. and when God restores your sadness/anger/hurt with joy/peace/happiness, He really restores it a hundred fold! i tell you the joy is literally like this ^_^ i was grinning from ear to ear.

after service, serene went to find her mum cuz her dad and sis arent around. so she bought kfc for her mum. sweeeeeeeeet child. heh, but we didnt wanna eat kfc cuz we didnt feel like it so we went to crystal jade. heh. and talked a lot. haaaaa, and right, serene is really the most gullible girl on Earth! goshhhh. she asked me these qns:

1) eh usually how you go to school ah.
2) oh then how you go home.
3) take bus ah?
4) take what bus?
5) ohhh from potong pasir mrt station?
6) FRIDAY WHAT TIME YOU END SCHOOL.
7) after school you got anything on and when i said yea smth like class outing then her face become the 'huhhhhhhhhhhhhh' face.

HEEHEEHEE. bumbum. since u end exams on thursday while i end mine on fri, it gives u ONE extra day to think of something newwww! but i love my serene this way! with LOL. (lots OF love).

after lunch, went for econs tuition. then i went to study a bit by myself at secret place before going for math tuition. and ohmygawd. got teased by yaoguang like mad. hes like so retarded. and i think im really really still not prepared for math! hurhur. k just do my best and God will do the rest. after math, i thought of going to study a bit more BUT i was having (am still having) quite a bad headache, so ive decided to go home. gonna take a panadol and see how things go..

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happy children's day to YOU, whose reading this ^_^
arent u glad ur still a child?
cuz no matter what,
you'll always be a child to our heavenly daddy.

cheers and all the best to those taking lit, math, econs, bio, chem dotz dotz dotz whatever la alright! and God bless me for the promos which starts on tues till fri. if you end promos earlier than me, BE NICE. dont SUAN make me feel envious alright. (: and im beginning to like huge fonts. hahaha.

even if its sweet nothings,
i dont mind.
i'll still choose to believe,
believe every word that you said.