ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i finally finished my njc compre without the Q&A. 9 marks lehhhhhhhh! im damn tired alrdy, shall go to bedddd now and try to wake up earlier later to finish up my compre. heh.

i think the best thing to deal with whats bothering you so much, is just to ignore it. dont you think?

nitezzz..

went for first service today with gracia, huizhi, serene, nicco and gary. sermon was good. i fell asleep for a while before gracia woke me up. heh. and for the first time today, i felt like you didnt have to sit beside me. knowing that your somewhere around suffice and i pray that you'll be happy always.

after service, had lunch at kenny rogers and i cried. cuz i told a lie to lionel and i felt damn freaking bad about it. yeah you'll be asking its only a harmless lie yada yada but NO, its different when your lying to someone whom you respect A LOT. the feeling just sucked and i think i cried so badly..thank goodness gracia, huizhi, serene, nicco and gary were there for me or else i guess things would have gotten worst. and im reallyreally glad that God put them in my life. yeah wouldnt know what to do without them. im sry im sucha crybaby sometimes but i felt really bad about it.

however, this incident also made me realise that actually, my fears are unduly..today, i realised that no matter where i am or how far/close our distance are apart, i know gracia, huizhi, serene and rachel will be there for me always. yeah then huizhi helped me type a sry msg to lionel and his reply really touched me. its as thou ive done something wrong yet he doesnt scold/punish me but instead love me with the love of the Lord. ohmygawd. i can see abba loving me so much from this incident.

"Oh yes, forgot to add- it doesnt lessen my opinion of you one bit so perish the idea :p"

yeahhhh im just at a loss for words except knowing deep in my heart that abba really loves me a lot. so yeah, after lunch, huizhi and gary went to watch the lakehouse whereas me, gracia, serene and nicco walked ard from suntec to marina square to town looking for a suitable new schoolbag for gracia and we finally found it! its a damn nice pony baggggg(:

serene and nic went off after that and me and gracia went to galilee and friends to study. did a bit of my math tutorial before i headed for math tuiton. bus didnt come today. it wasnt really productive cuz i really dont understand math! its like everything is going soooooooo fast whereas our sch havent taught us anything related to that subject yet. stupid guys were staring at ONE girl again. so annoyed and intimidated! goshhhhhhhh.

skipped econs, went back to look for gracia and completed my math tutorial with quite a no. of qns quite blank cuz i didnt know how to do. -_-' nvm, at least i attempted rightttt. haha then gracia finished up her bio and we took bus homeeeeeeeee.

im thankful for everything that happened today. i know its all in daddy's hands and its gonna turn out good.

PS, I FORGOT TO DO MY NJC COMPRE. *&^%$# why did i remember it only NOWWWW?

PPS, i must say again, KOREAN DRAMAS ARE LOVEEEE.

goodnight and God bless you all especially you, You& YOU! ^^

hello people! fancy me blogging at such an unearthly time. heh. anyways, praise and worship on friday night was damn good! like seriously, i wouldnt trade anything in the world for it. friday night just felt like it was heaven on earth. and i found my superretarded mate! presenting to you GARYCHUA. haha both of us tapped our ezlink card when we got up the chartered bus. hahah. yeah below are the girls who went for the praise and worship. i seriously lovelovelove ALL of them A LOT. too bad my camera is with zihao, or else there would be more photos.

nicco and chua came along too. heh. ohhhh there were these few SA girls and their friends who sat on the same row as us..so denise and lionel suggested that i go talk to them..and i was like aiyahhhh they are sure J2 peeps man! but in the end, they are J1s lehhhhhhhh! couldnt really remember their names but they're really nice and friendly. ohhh, they're wanling's friends! so next time i can say hi to them in school XD

well, this praise and worship session has confirmed what my dream in my life is. yeah although it TOTALLY have no link to studies, ill still study hard because i know its definitely part of God's plan. hehe. and yeah, i think i kinda finally broke through my barrier of thoughts just now about some stuff and its goodddddd. i know sometimes the devil might put stupid thoughts in my brain but its just a mind game. what i feel and think might not be what other ppl feel and think about me. so if theres anything that im unsure of, then ill ask and seek the person's opinions. yupp.

todayyyyyyyy, i just spend my whole day sleeping(to make up for what ive lost during the past week) and watching tv prog. korean dramas are loveeeee. ^^ tmr is gonna be a busy day with service and then tuitions. haha. ohhh and i finish reading the alchemist and its a damn good book! hurhur. theres this part where it says..

"There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure."

so true isnt it? we're not scared of failures actually but its the FEAR of failure which scares us.

and..

"Naturally, your heart is afraid that, in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you've won."

butttttt your heart can be at rest when you know its all in God's hands(: goodnight people. God bless you.

if there is a song which perfectly describe how i feel now, it would be this...i like it how when im at a loss for words, i can just keep quiet and listen.

It hasn't always been this way
I remember brighter days
Before the dark ones came
Stole my mind
Wrapped my soul in chains

Now I live among the dead
Fighting voices in my head
Hoping someone hears me crying in the night
And carries me away

Set me free of the chains holding me
Is anybody out there hearing me?
Set me free

Morning breaks another day
Finds me crying in the rain
All alone with my demons I am
Who is this man that comes my way?
The dark ones shriek
They scream His name
I s this the One they say will set the captives free?
Jesus, rescue me

As the God man passes by
He looks straight through my eyes
And darkness cannot hide

Do you want to be free?
Lift your chains
I hold the key
All power on Heaven and Earth belong to me

You are free
You are free
You are free


amen.

As if
I'm ever gonna take you back
As if
It's ever gonna come to that
So see you 'round, wave goodbye
Be a bird pass me by
As if
I'm gonna let you break my heart again
As if I'm gonna let your love back in my life
Not tonight, catch my drift
Baby as if


todays weather is of the megaaaa hot. sch was as usual. nothing much. goshhhhh, today, i finally reached home early at about 4+ hahah. i miss coming home early. and OH, FOR ONCE todayyyy i went to borrow history books from the library and printed some of my notes! wowwwww. XD yeah but i didnt really know how to use the photocopy machine and my paper got stuck halfway and my notes look really uglyyyy. maybe ill reprint them some other time.

i have quite a lot to do today but i guess it should be pretty alright. im gonna slp early so that tmr i can have the energy for service learning and PW. im quite excited for PW tmr. hahah.

i cant really think of anything that can motivate me to studyyyy. i dont know why. there used to be some motivation and ill wanna work really hard. but now, i cant seem to find it. the only thing which makes me wanna study for promos is that it ends on SIX OCTOBER TWO THOUSAND AND SIX. yeah.

hm, okayyyyy im offf. haha im hungryyyyyyyyyy. :/

helloooooooooooo people!

first service with huizhi, gracia, gary, nicco, serene, sean&stan. i fell asleep for a while before waking up, thus i managed to catch what the sermon was about.

1) dont focus on your troubles and problems etc.
2) turn your back on your problems and just ignore the devil.

haha okay i know you probably dont understand much by me just saying it here. but it meant a lot to me. heh. OH, i was reallyyyyy happy cuz the two people i really care for raised their hands during service today. XD lunch later on with huizhi, gracia, gary, nicco and serene. haha its always fun to eat and just hang out with them cuz they're so retarded.

went to nics house to do PW (written report) after that and it was fun too. haha i love tudy PROVIDED he doesnt bark at me. yesterday i got chased by him and i had to jump unto nics mums bed. ahaha. pw is such a chore sometimes i really abhor it. so many stuff to write, edit and we still have to phrase everything nicely..but its okay, take delight in whatever im doing. ^^

after that, i went for math tution. GUESS WHO IS IN MY MATH TUITION TOO NOW? HURHUR. S-H-A-M-I-R! oh my tian, MING ahhhhhhhhh! haha. when i first saw him, i was like *&^$, whats he doing here. yeah i mean i havent seen him for 4 long months and i mean it just happened like that. and so i guess ill be seeing him every week starting from now. and for you who dont know whats the story behind, ask me? ill tell, i promise ^^ yeah and thru this, ive learnt some stuff too.

1) ***its really when you dont care about your problems that things happen.
2) NEVER EVER DO SOMETHING CRAZY TO SOMEONE THINKING THAT YOU WILL NEVER EVEN SEE HIM IN YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE AGAIN. its amazing how scared&embarrassed you feel when you see that person again and NO, im not kidding.

yeahh econs after that and it was damn boring. rahhhhh if only econs could be three quarter as fun as math. (: amen. haha so im back home now still recovering from my shock. i think today i shall put my nice green files to good use and file up my work. heh then ill go to bed cuz tmr is a loooooooooooong day.

God bless ya people!

P.S, tmr marc might be coming to SA.
i think i could do with a little more surprise(:

HELLO PEOPLE! if you havent help me do my PW online survey on film making especially you,you and YOU, pls go to:

www.advancedsurvey.com

AND

type in the number 41584 and help me do my survey! but if you do alrdy, then dont do it again okay. and must do it with integrity lehhhhhhh (meaning your true feelings), my 10% to uni entry depends on YOU! see, you play an important part in my life. ^^ from 20 to 41, i think i did my part la, rightright.

this morning, there was a concert put up for us and it was pretty good. some NYJC-ians had no school. im not envious. then we had chinese. didnt do much cuz not many ppl were around. just read the textbook. pe next. played badminton for a little while and spent the rest of the time trying to do my standing board jump. didnt do much for math too and we juz learnt how to roughly use the GC.

after sch, we had to prepare for our service learning thingy and it was fun just preparing for the stuff. haha i donno why but i felt happy(: just talking about things other than schoolwork. ohhhhhhhh anyway, i just invented a kind of bed which is called the UU - B E D! and can you guess why its called the UU - B E D? haha bet you cant guess it right. its because, i invented this bed specially based on my grades for common test! hurhur. yeah so i got two Us, one B, one E, and one D. haha hopefully my D can become a C. i shall attempt to work harder and do better. haha amen.

after that, went for first aid course and qi and i gave our first kiss away to the stupid dummy because we had to do CPR for the dummy. haha. today's first aid was relatively alright. yupp.

sometimes the things which i like the most, when i hate it, i hate it the most too.

and we were juz this (ME---------YOU) close and you didnt even bother to say hi. maybe you didnt see me or maybe....... hahah okay nvm. niccc say i shldnt get too bothered about him and yupp i dont eyecandy pretty boy no morezxzxz

jessgal89athotmail.com, i love u! ^_^
you know the brain chooses what it want to see.
when your at a super dark tunnel and you see a ray of light,
you can choose to believe that you see a train coming your way& your so dead,
OR
you can choose to believe that you see a ray of light and that your dark journey is coming to an end.
Jesus loves u and so do US<3

today we had half day in sch so sch ends at 1245pm. BUT my lessons on thursdays end at 145pm. tell me tell me. this half day is totally good? after sch, met roy at town and we watched pirates of the caribbean : dead man's chest. i like johnny depp. ^^ haha and thanks roy for treating me to the movieeee! (:

then i left for tuition at mrs khan's house. was really tired so i didnt pay much attention. so thats my exciting thursday for you. hahah. goodnight and God bless you.

some songs, you nvr get tired of listening to them over and over again.

today,illputeverythingawayandillgotobed.tmrwheniwakeup,iwillstarteverythingafresh.

anddaddywillteachmehowtodealwithlifecuzicantdoitalonebutiknowhecanandhewilldoitforme.

imputtingmytrustinhimforsomanythings.andbecauseofthefinishedworkonthecrosstwo

thousandyearsagoiknowthatitisdoneandihaveeveryrighttodeservehisblessings.thankuabba(:

woahhhhhhh im having the busiest week of my life now. gosh, damn busy lehhhhhhhhh. with gp presentation, pw, odac and studies. enough to kill me. i bought my big ring files on monday and up till now i still havent put my ws into the files. :/ waste my time carrying the files home. cant believe my this week till next monday is FULLY packed.

today sch was alright. and we have odac stall check after that. oh and i found out that my pretty boy has a girlfriend alrdy.

me: eh thats my pretty boy!
cheryl: ehhhhh! he got girlfriend alrdy right?!
me: @_@

): X10000000. im like wtfffff when i found out. to think that i always will take the initiative to say hi to him first. wahlaoooooo. the guys i think are kinda cute are always either:
1) attached already OR
2) have quite a no. of girls liking them
i dont understnad la. goshhh. i think im really not fated to have a decent eyecandy in school. so forget it. FORGET ABOUT IT. haha.

woah and my results is reallyyyyy bad. haha gracia and huizhi, i can officially join your Us club. i think i can be in the exco. i dont understnad how come ppl get As and i get Us..there are 19 alphabets in between them..see even the distance between the alphabets are so far apart!! madness.

i miss playing badminton& going to church.

its one of the few things which i do that i feel really happy.

ohhh, paul performed quite badly for singapore idol today. ): jonathan did quite well though. haha and nic made me laugh like mad cuz we're both noobs at the new version of msn. hahaha. so we decided to be just normal and use the old one. haha.

sometimes i feel really uncomfortable in the place where you put me in..but you said that if the circumstance dont change, then im gonna change. i cling on to no one but you daddy. and one day, i shall see all that you've said come to pass. i know you love me and thats all ill ever need to know in my whole life. teach me Lord, in my everday life(:

Goodnight ppl....

sch was kinda long and draggy today. everything went alright until the last part where we were having pe. i was playing happily until mr lam called my name and i was like 'fuck, damnit' because of one standing broad jump, i have to redo everything single thing. and i was like WHATever. cannot jump means cannot jump what. you dont expect me to put something in my shoes to make me jump right. was on the verge of tears cuz i really tried my best for it alrdy and all i got is this shit. yeah. the idea is somewhere there. BUT thanks to classmates who made things better. haha. and well, i guess its okay..nehmind. i juz have to do better i guess.

and i know that daddy will make everything alright.

after sch, ate prata with jess and just talked to her. heh. then i headed home. on my way home, i saw zhentang and mingli. walked with them to the bus stop and i said bye to ming li cuz he had to cross the bridge over to take his bus. ^^ i think pretty boys are cute. HAHA. OKAY I FEEL NIC STARING AT ME. then zhentang told me he think he got an A for H2 CHEM @_@ how come i feel that H1 chem is like so difficult? ^%$#@!

i need to go and do my pw surveyyyy now. :/ rahhhhhh.
God bless u&ME<3

went for first today with huizhi, gracia, serene, stan, sean, nicco and gary. i fell asleep cuz i was reallyyyyyyyy tired. but i did listen to the last part of the sermon. well then i was juz thinking..econs we do cpe(central problem of economics) sooooooo why not change this to CPE(central problem-solver of everything!!) haha yeah referring to daddy God. LOL okay, just some random thoughts. lunch at just noodles. then we went to shop&walk&talk.

then gary went off with huizhi to study. nic and serene went walking somewhere else. sooooo gracia and me went to town. went to tcc at cine and we slacked a while. after that, she accompanied me to tuition. haha. todays math wasnt productive at all cuz i cant do differentiation for nutsssss. and then my seat was taken up by. nehmind, next time ill be early for tuition. ^^

talked to M and Y said hi to me. XD after tuition, went to meet huizhi and then we went home togetherrrrrr. haha.

so tmr is the start of a new week and its gonna be a busy one. BUT nvm, because i delight in the things that i do heh.

if hearts were unbreakable,
then i could just tell you where i stnad.....
sometimes, i wish you would really know how much i care,
but its okay because no one said you have to repay my kindness.
i do it all because i like you
and i want you to know that Jesus loves u too.
seeing you love Him with all your heart one day would be what i wish to see..
amen.


God bless ya all ppl(:

today was (:

yesterday was ):

this week felt like it passed by super slowly, but it also felt like God has taught me much more. just a day ago, i would never have imagine myself having that peace which makes me wanna smile. i was just the small little girl who felt lost and who just cried like a baby. but oh well, daddy God always make things turn out for our good, dont he?

and the song shout to the lord? heard that it was sung yesterday at bs and i just thought of how it used to be my favourite song and i would keep singing it. definitely memorable. and now, im listening to it again. haha.

i think sometimes life really gets me down but ive learnt. even if the whole world is to forsake me, daddy lord will never do that. and because of this, i have every reason to be happy and smile.

and because john 8 : 12 says..

Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, "I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life."

(:

wahhhhhhh today damn tired man.

lessons on thursdays are exceptionally long omgomg i always fall asleep. not that i want to..but when you have econs, chi, history and econs all in a row, i think you would think otherwise. yeah anyways, i got B for my chinese and im okay with it. not that its damn good la, but i guess im fine with it. haha AND right, laoshi made us say "wo hui nu li!" with our hands up before we go off from chi today and i think its damn hilarious. yupp. after sch, had lunch with qi, nic, jess and windri.

then jess and windri went for the grace heaven thingy? and nic went home. so qi decided to be nice and accompanied me to telok blangah(?) to get huizhi her uniform. IF i went there alone, i think i would cry cuz its superrrrr ulu!! omg, walked like quite far. hahah. then i saw a puppy and i was quite scared so qi went in front of me trying to protect me and in her vain attempt to do so, she banged me against the wall lorrrrrr. THANKS ah. yupp bought huizhi her uniform and then we went to town to eat cakes at tcc. walked a bit more before i headed for tuition and qi went home.

BEFORE i went for tuition, i thought it was still early so i decided to be nice and sent huizhis uniform to her house. haha. and i wasted about half an hour waiting for BUS THREE. its like of the mega slowwwwwwwww. wahlao, was quite irritated. lol. but yeah got her uniform to her house in the end and then went for tuition. tuition was rather productive and i did quite a bit of work. yeah and then im homee now.

ive a headache and i wanna sleep alrdy. long day tmr and i cant go for bs cuz of the red cross thingy and its gonna last for SIX fridays. ggxx. :/ ah wells, nvm. goodnight and God bless u all!

PS, sch ends at 915AM tmr and i only need to attend half an hour of chinese! ^^

COMMON TEST IS FINALLY OVERRRRRR! i feel like ive been waiting for today for damn long alrdy. and as expected, got owned by math. haha. oh whatever, not like i care. i expected it anyway. soooo just gotta work harder! after math, class outing! we had lunch at kenny rogers and while walking thru citylink, we bought the godiva dark chocolate decadence.


THIS IS LOVE...

with jess!

and THIS, with BIG goon goon. i appreciate her jokes OKAY!

part of the 06A03 girls ^^

anddddddddddddd, me with the bum.

after that, i left to meet huizhi and gracia at nyjc. felt intimidated la! ohhhhhhhh, btw, when we board the bus to nyjc, (we took bus 156 bytheway) i went up the bus and i was REALLYOMGSUPERDUPER SHOCKED and i gasped so loudly la! guess who did i see? of all times and of all places. tell me, whats the probability of me taking bus 156 to nyjc at that particular time? probably 0.000000000000000001. i saw seetoh! wahlao, i nearly fainted. huizhi NEVEREVER see him on the bus BEFORE OKAY. i wanted to say hi to him but i think he cannot remember me. i tell you right, hes looking damn good now. hahaha. so i got to know some of gracia and huizhi friends and well, they're pretty nicee. then i waited for them to finish their touch rug training before going for dinner with gracia, huizhi and garyCHUA at chomp chomp. gary said i was rude lorrrrr. tell me im not ^^

there is sch tmr and i seriously dont feel like going. i feel like i just finished my As. haha. okay la, crap. God bless ya all and GOODNIGHT(:

celine dion - because you love me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
Ill be forever thankful Jesus
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

i would like to sing this to Jesus with all my heart. gosh, its one of the bestest songs anyone could ever compose. the lyrics and everything else, i can fully comprehend and it feels as though the lyrics were speaking to me. every single word spoke to me. i just kept replaying this song in my ipod over and over again. its an irony how my only dream doesnt match with what im studying/doing now. i wish one day i could just praise you, with all my love ones seeing me perform.

well, so today i had history common test and for history, i NEVER like memorizing dates/years because i always get them mixed up and it makes me angry. haha so i always skip the dates and years when i read my notes. i always think 'heck la, sure wont come out a particular date/year one' then to my happiness(!!!) i saw my section b qns. "which of the following dates marked the true turning point in the relationship between the USA and the USSR: 1945, 1947 or 1948" (25m) well, that pawnedxzxz me. i was like @_@ did i see correctly or not! haha. so i guess i have nothing much to talk about now. but its all in Gods hands ^^

after history, i went home with cui and we talked quite a lot. haha i always like talking to cui cuz shes someone whom i feel i can relate to. heh. so now im home and i think im gonna get owned by math tmr. haha. oh wells, gonna do my best and God will do the rest yeahhhhhhhhh. and by tmr, common test is overrrrrr! ^^

being oblivious to the hurt
DOESNT mean that im not hurt.

today, went for first with gracia, huizhi, serene, stan, sean, nicco and gary. pastor prince is really good! i mean he really have a understanding which surpass all understandings and i want to have wisdom too. haha. after that, went for lunch at crystal jade with gracia, huizhi, serene, nicco and gary. then huizhi and gary had to leave first. ahah. after lunch, me and gracia went to town to study cuz i had tuition at 5 and she was meeting gerald. serene and nic went to walk ard. heh. nehmind, next week we can go shop alrdy! ^^

so we ended up at cine...

i attempted to study history BUTTTT they were playing the repeat of the germany vS portugal match then me and gracia got distracted and shifted our eyes from the worksheets to the tv. haha. SO RIGHT, until now, i havent finish studying my history and i think im screwed. but whatever la, im just trying my best and God will do the rest. at about 430, gracia went to meet gerald and i went for tuition.

DURING tuition, i got pissed because i really wanted to concentrate but some stupid guy who was sitting beside me was LITERALLY staring at a girl for TWO WHOLE FREAKING HOURS. i tell you i was so pissed okay! thank goodness i cant remember his name/face. i got quite intimidated by some other stuff too. yeah differentiation now is damn difficult to do la.

after tuition, went to meet gracia and gerald for a while before gerald left. then gracia accompanied me to eat at pepper lunch cuz i was hungry. then i told her all about the tuition thingy and i kept repeating until i think she was irritated but i had to reinforce that i was really pissed. haha but anyways, gracia still loves me. ^^ took the train home and we started singing praise&worship songs. heh.

wont be watching the finals of the world cup cuz im going to bedddddd. zzz. i think france is gonna win. no? haha i donno. but yaaaa, do my best and God will do the rest. amen.

PS, i think my best guy friend and my tuition friend have very funny characters. cuz we had to do gracia's survey and it asked about music, like how much would you be willing to pay for the uploading of a song..$1, $1.50, $2..yada yada into ur ipod or something like that. you have to tick the box la, if not you write how much you are willing to pay. BEST GUY FRIEND and TUITION FRIEND wrote $0.00 @_@

you know these few days havent been exactly good because i was battling with my mind. i havent finish studying my history because there are seriously A LOT to study for and i cant seem to memorise the points even after reading them and i got really upset. then i thought about maths and i felt like crying because if theres TWO subjects i really cant do, its maths and chem. then i got reallyreally upset and i felt guilty. i kept wishing that i had more time to study and ill make sure i study if i had more time. well, the fact is i dont have enough time and history is just one day away. :/

BUTTTTT thank God He kept reminding me of his love for me. fri bs was good and i just returned home from campus. it was really super good and pastor chin preached about condemnation, guilt and shame. yeah then i got prayed for and well..now, im just gonna really try my best and do what i can for history and math and the rest is up to God. i love how daddy reminds me that he has alrdy paid for all my sins and that he loves me A LOT. haha. so im a happy girl nowwww.

you never know what the anchors worth until a storm comes.

taking my sin my cross my shame
rising again i bless your name
you are my all in all
when i fall down you pick me up
when i am dry you fill my cup
you are my all in all...

and because of Jesus, i really can rejoice and be happy because i know that even if the whole world were to leave me out, daddy will never fail me. ^^

and He said, "it is finished"
because He died on the cross for me, i have everything in Christ. amen.
(:

woke up at 8.15am
went back to sleep
woke up at 9am
went back to sleep
woke up at 10am
anddddd did NOT go back to sleep. ahah.

today, i studied econs. studied the notes and stuff and i hope i dont get all the factors messed up because the factors for demand, supply, PED, YED and XED all seem so alike. haha. okay i shall juz try my best tmr and God will do the rest amen. anyways, i like to talk, eat, study, listen to songssss, staring into space, wasting some time doing nothing and i love my friends. BUT i dont like bees, feeling bad cuz i said something bad, and i must say again, i DONT like bees.

so in all, today is a rather productive day. ^^

i also like it when i get to see you playing soccer while walking back home. no la imjuzKIDDING

okay, all the best for econs paper tmr and all the best to stanleyyy and dominic for their chinese orals tmr. yeahhh God bless. im gonna start studying history tmr. his-story. hahaha. <33

first of all, i want to sayyyy HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO SERENE SEAH FOREST MY BEST FRIENDDD. haha i love u!

SOOOOO, after gp today, i went to macs to eat with qi, jess& gloria. qi doesnt like mcspicy cuzz she think its too spicy..see i found someone who eats lesser chilli than me! haha. then after that, i went to suntec to get serene her present. first, i went to get the brazil pencil box cuz she likes brazil :/ im gonna get the england one. then i went candy empire to buy candies for her. wanted to meet huizhi and gracia actually but then cuz they were at town and i had to go home to make serene's present so we didnt meet up in the end.

reached home, took a bath, started printing all the pictures and then i did the present. it was like in the from of a book, supposedly to be my diary. it talks about how we meet when we were young, what we did, our first timessss yada yada.. yupp took quite some time to do and i was half an hour late for tuition. haha but in the end i dont think i was late cuz rainer and guan an kinda just reached also. i am going to make an effort to read the newspaper everyday okay.. yeah. after tuition, took bus&train from pasir ris to queenstown and walked to serene's house. ehhhhhhh her house damn ulu la. hidden in one corner. then i kinda like couldnt find the place and i got scared. hurhur. but of course, i found the house in the end...

this is what i got for her...

yeahhh she read the book and she was happy! which makes me happy tooooo! haha. took a photo of her looking happy. seeee, shes smiling so widely! but then right, yuki damn fierce to me. she keeps barking at me. i got real scared. haha. yeah anyhow, she walked me to the mrt station and then i went from queenstown back to pasir ris. hurhur. haha. but at least my dear bestie is happy so its all worthwhile!

ahah. so today is a busy day in all. i feel damn tired and im gonna sleep soon. tmr is of the studying for econs day. then i can start on my history. but yeahhhh seriously, it feels good to see your friend, especially someone who means the world to you put a smile on his/her face cuz it really brightens up your day too. heh. goodnight and God bless ^^

daddy, i know that even though i have no boyfriend, i know that its not time. thank you for always being there for me. thank you for reminding me that i dont need acceptance from other people because you have alrdy accepted me. i dont need to feel that im not pretty because im glorious in christ. yeah i got really upset ytd and i think i cried all my worries and fears and low self esteem out. but daddy, thank you for being there for me really. i cant tell you how much i appreciate you for that. abba, thank u for loving me and giving me friends who truly appreciate me. i love you too and i know that i can look forward to blessed and happy days because of you. i know that sometimes i still feel low self esteem but i know i do not go by my feelings. i have faith in you to make ALL things right and to give me what i truly want. AMEN.blessed common tests too. amenamen.

yesterday, went for first with huizhi, serene, nicco, stan&sean. pastor mark preached and it was gooddddddd la. i didnt fall asleep. hehe. after service, i talked a little to sean and it was good too. lunch at kenny rogers and after that, me, huizhi, serene and nicco went to watch superman returns. wahhhhhhhhh, i think it was kinda boring. average only. like nothing really special. kinda like a waste of timeeeeee.

me and huizhi went to eat a bit more after that before settling down at starbucks to talk a little. then i went for tuition anddddd right, its super unproductive cuz i kept talking&talking&talking. got to know YAO GUANG and liwei. liwei is from sa too lehhhhhhhhh. haha i nvr knew that. they're all serene's friends la! damn funny. i also keep talking to alpha. hurhur. yeah went to meet huizhi at starbucks after tuition and we wanted to study but it wasnt successful cuz i was talking to dominic for a while onlyyyyyyy then the both of us started talking together again. after that, we went home.todayyyy was spent.....

*i stopped blogging halfway yesterday so im continuing today-monday* yeah went to study at starbucks with the two garys, gracia, huizhi and myself! did a bit of studying only. not very productive but at least i finished studying my cpe. yeah.then gary song went off halfway to meet his sister to watch superman which is :/ haha. studied, eat dinner, talked, walked and then we went homeeeee.

i think everytime i feel like blogging, something bad will happen and i wont feel like blogging anymore. i dont know why but it seem to happen everytime and im PISSED. okay, it shall neverrrr happen again. next time when i blog, ill not tell ppl im blogging. ahaha. okay so today, MONDAY, i woke up with a sore eye and sooo i had to wear my specs to sch and i didnt like it. everyone was asking if i cried yesterday. haha. nope i didnt.

had GP paper today and i have no comments. i dont know if its good or not cuz i totally have no idea. i juz go by my intuition. haha. i think i will update more later perhaps cuz for now, i have something to do............for my best friend. XD

BRAZIL vS FRANCE, 0-1

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this is SO shocking.

hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i think i learnt ALOT through soccer matches, dont you think?

its a soooo unpredictable game. no one's the winner until the very last moment, really.
this year world cup finals is gonna be worth the watch. i think the germans are gonna win.
thank God history paper starts at 11.30, which means im gonna watch from 2 to 4am then go to bed till 10.30am before i go to sch for paper. ^^

off for first now. God bless.

IM VERY VERY VERY UPSET THAT ENGLAND LOST AND I WANNA CRY NOW. ): FUCK. ARGHHHHH. BECKHAM INJURED, ROONEY RED CARD (FUCK THAT) AND TERRY GOT A YELLOW CARD. WAHLAOOOOOOOOO.

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aiyahhhhhhhhhhh damn upset now.i literally feel very heartbroken OMG YES I AM VERY VERY SAD i think i should go to bed and cry. its okay england. FOUR years later, when im TWENTYONE, my heart is still with you.<3

yesterday i had my chi As oral exam.....

examiner: have you heard of the new chi newspaper which is free yada yada.....
me: *thinking in my mind* wtf, is this a trick qns? i dont know that such a newspaper exist but what if i say i know of sucha newspaper and they laugh at me and say actually such a newspaper actually dont exist..

yeah i said no i dont know of such a newspaper in the end. then they explained to me what is it about and in total, my reading+conversation ended in less than 5 mins. so what do you think? hurhur. :/ but yeah, its all in daddy's hand(:

went for bs after that with gracia, huizhi and the two garys. pastor mark preached and he was superrr gooddddddddd la. and after that, me and gracia had a bigggg quarrel. yeah but we talked it out after that and well, things are okay now. haha i think its good to talk things out between best friends when you have problems. at least the problem is solved and you know that your friendship is gonna be so much more stronger. sooooooooo, i love u gracia, huizhi and gary! ^^

well, today, i slacked the whole day. always feel good to do that. haha currently, im waiting for my england vS portugal match which is starting in FIVE mins time and i really really want england to win okay! yeah goooooooo england! go rooney, beckham, lampard and steven gerrard! XD first tmr! God bless.