went for first service today with gracia, huizhi, serene, nicco and gary. sermon was good. i fell asleep for a while before gracia woke me up. heh. and for the first time today, i felt like you didnt have to sit beside me. knowing that your somewhere around suffice and i pray that you'll be happy always.

after service, had lunch at kenny rogers and i cried. cuz i told a lie to lionel and i felt damn freaking bad about it. yeah you'll be asking its only a harmless lie yada yada but NO, its different when your lying to someone whom you respect A LOT. the feeling just sucked and i think i cried so badly..thank goodness gracia, huizhi, serene, nicco and gary were there for me or else i guess things would have gotten worst. and im reallyreally glad that God put them in my life. yeah wouldnt know what to do without them. im sry im sucha crybaby sometimes but i felt really bad about it.

however, this incident also made me realise that actually, my fears are unduly..today, i realised that no matter where i am or how far/close our distance are apart, i know gracia, huizhi, serene and rachel will be there for me always. yeah then huizhi helped me type a sry msg to lionel and his reply really touched me. its as thou ive done something wrong yet he doesnt scold/punish me but instead love me with the love of the Lord. ohmygawd. i can see abba loving me so much from this incident.

"Oh yes, forgot to add- it doesnt lessen my opinion of you one bit so perish the idea :p"

yeahhhh im just at a loss for words except knowing deep in my heart that abba really loves me a lot. so yeah, after lunch, huizhi and gary went to watch the lakehouse whereas me, gracia, serene and nicco walked ard from suntec to marina square to town looking for a suitable new schoolbag for gracia and we finally found it! its a damn nice pony baggggg(:

serene and nic went off after that and me and gracia went to galilee and friends to study. did a bit of my math tutorial before i headed for math tuiton. bus didnt come today. it wasnt really productive cuz i really dont understand math! its like everything is going soooooooo fast whereas our sch havent taught us anything related to that subject yet. stupid guys were staring at ONE girl again. so annoyed and intimidated! goshhhhhhhh.

skipped econs, went back to look for gracia and completed my math tutorial with quite a no. of qns quite blank cuz i didnt know how to do. -_-' nvm, at least i attempted rightttt. haha then gracia finished up her bio and we took bus homeeeeeeeee.

im thankful for everything that happened today. i know its all in daddy's hands and its gonna turn out good.

PS, I FORGOT TO DO MY NJC COMPRE. *&^%$# why did i remember it only NOWWWW?

PPS, i must say again, KOREAN DRAMAS ARE LOVEEEE.

goodnight and God bless you all especially you, You& YOU! ^^