FINALLY,

hello people, hello world. (:

havent blogged for a week and SO MUCH has happened. this week passed by so slowly. cant really remember what happened EXCEPT that i was on the verge of retaining. and i tell you, this feeling is no joke. its the worst fucked up feeling i've ever felt. say on the average i cried like 3 times a day, cant seem to put my heart into doing anything and felt so so so upset. it was like i would do anything and i mean ANYTHING to get promoted. and it doesnt help when your teacher ask you to be mentally prepared for the WORST. and its even WORST when you know that you cant do anything at all, except to wait. its like living in uncertainties every single day while waiting for the decisions to be made. part of you knows that you wont get retained but theres always another part of you which says, ' WHAT IF...just what if...' then what am i gonna do? and every time teachers mentioned the word 'results' or something to do with it, tears cant help but well up in your eyes and before you know it, your crying again. A LOT of thoughts came running through my mind and i just wished that i had another chance. if only. id make sure i grab the chance and cherish it. i really felt like all doors have closed on me and even though i tried telling myself that i have other alternatives, at the end of the day, who am i kidding? i know deep within me that the only way i want things to turn out would be to get me promoted.

THANKFULLY, Jesus was always there for me. all the friends who knew about this matter all pointed me back to God and they never fail to remind me that He loves me dearly. i knew that although i couldnt really take in their advices, it was clear that the only solution i had was to cling on to Jesus. thanks especially to serene, huizhi, denise and wanling. ANDAND qi, nicky, jess for crying with me when i bawled like a small baby and also to 06A03 plus other ppl who were really concerned. weeeeeeeeee clarice is reallyreally touched. like stan said, 'it would be a good learning experience for you at the end of the day' and indeed, i guess it was? but i NEVER EVER EVER wanna feel like that EVER again. AMEN.

anyway, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO CHENPEI!
thanks for being sucha joy in my life!
CJC buddy, who ps-ed me halfway! hurhurhur. no la, just kidding alright.

and qi is the number 1 ah ma.
nicky is the number 2 funniest girl evereverever.

eating tao huay could produce comic relief too.
"whats the soup ah?"
actually referring to the peanut dumplings in the soyabean milk.
AND
i have never seen a girl who doesnt know that the syrup of the tao huay will sink to the bottom. so this girl ate the tao huay on top and left the syrup to sink at the bottom. and im like 'woah, you dont like the syrup? its at the bottom.' and then this girl said 'oh, no wonder its so bitter.....' i stared at her and her face changes immediately. BUT MY FACE WAS EVEN BETTER.

TOTALLY 100% @_@

but what to do? thats the way i like my nicky done. (:

God bless ya all.