went to vivocity with huizhi today. haha we both lost our virgin vivo trip to each other. XD so vivo is like damn bigggggg. omgzzz was a bit giddy when i went there cuz it felt so foreign and there were like lotsa ppl. vivocity = a summary of the main shops in Singapore but more elaborated. ^_^ like what huizhi said, "if i were a tourist, id rather stay at a hotel near sentosa and shop at vivo everyday." hahah. right, so dinner was super good because i was very hungryyyyyyy. then we went to walk around and shop. and i saw val and amanda. heh-heh-heh.










then we left at around 10pm plus. didnt manage to walk the whole of vivo though. too big la. haha anyway, the above pic is a classic shot la. huizhi suggested it. go figure how we took it!



and finally, the bestest and nicest sister in the whole wide world. i heart you lots. (:

GOD BLESS.

Bryan Adams - Never Let Go

can you lay your life down so a stranger can live
can you take what you need, but take less than you give
could you close every day without the glory and fame
could you hold you head high when no one knows your name
that's how legends are made - at least that's what they say

we say goodbye - but never let go
we live we die - cuz you can't save every soul
gotta take every chance to
show that you're the kinda of man who
will never look back - never look down
and never let go

can you lose everything you ever had planned
can you sit down again and play another hand
could you risk everything for the chance of being alone
under pressure find the grace - or would you come undone
that's how legends are made - at least that's what they say

The Guardian is a damn good show. ashton kutcher is cute. heh-heh-heh. first in the morning, then went to watch the guardian with huizhi. and tuitions after that. (:

"So Others May Live"

hopefully there wont be anymore chinese test/exams/lessons for me. AMEN. haha.

today i finally went for my first denise cg. hurhur. been hesistating whether i should go and this constant hesistation lasted for like what? from march till now. been quite a while. but nonetheless, i think im glad that i went. because, really, i think God is just putting everything into place and for me to grow and learn more. so overall, today's cg was good. (:

met up with jess, cui and the rest of jess youth cg later on for barbecue food and a sharing session at her aunty's house at holland. it was good too. heh. i enjoyed myself a lot. *nicky and qi, next time must come along la! i feel very mmm..homely when i go for her youth cg. you know sometimes being in sucha big church where the youth ministry is also big doesnt allow you to know everyone. the feeling is totally different. i think daddy is teaching me something along this line. but i dont know what is it yet though. nonetheless, thanks jess for inviting me! after that, sean and sherry (supercuteandmatchingcouple) fetched me and cui home. thank you to the both of them. heh-heh-heh.

so now im home.
happy and full as can be (:





goodnight world.
God bless.

the trouble with never is never never works.

op dry run 2 tmr.
chinese As in three days time.

on a heavier note, i still cant seem to find my entrypass for chinese As.

okay, before i start this post,

HAPPY 17TH NICOLE TOH!
hope you liked the presents (and yes i know you do)
(:

morning started off damn badly. my maid woke me up at 645am and im like !!!! im LATE alrdy. so i thought maybe ill go to sch after math lecture but NO, miss wong called and said i MUST reach sch by 810am to see the principal and all. then she say cannot be late ah. then im like shucks! omgzzz. really pressed for time and i seriously felt like crying. yeah but in the end, managed to reach sch on time and had some principal talk. Daddy has really shown me His grace this time round. like what nicky said,'never knew TWO points was SO important' hurhur. now i know.

math lecture. econs lecture. then me, jess and nicky went to cine to watch the prestige. its a super good show i tell you. was kept in suspense all the way till the end of the show. qi didnt join us because shes not feeling well. EH, PS LA. then juz walked ard town and ate with the two i-cannot-find-words-to-describe girls. LOL (loads of loveeee) yeah then nicky gotta go homee. walked ard somemore with jess and then we decided to go home because for once, jess legs felt tired and she was gonna kockout any moment.

so by right, i was supposed to go home too. BUT by left (i see nicky's eyes rolling), i dont know why but i landed myself up in church, for bible study on a thursday evening, alone. haha. the feeling of going to church alone came back and it felt not bad. heh. anyway, service was good but the praise and worship part, was excellent. nothing can beat that. and then i went home a happy girl(:

God bless ya all.

shalom
shalom
shalom shalom
sar shalom...

hello world.

i have no idea why i cant reply on my tagboard so im just gonna reply here. haha. cui, yeah the grp photo is cute. i mean you must see whose in the photos right? ^_^

monday morning was spent doing OP dry run 1. omg, i got so nervous during the answering of qns session that i stumbled on my words and my answers were kinda crappy. hurhur. nvm, gotta try to do better for dry run 2 next wed. :/

after that, met up with chenpei the lameshitgirl to celebrate our birthdays. hohoho. had dinner at the village/marche and then tcc. super freaking full pls. but i miss that girl. man, shes doing so freaking well in poly while im struggling to get promoted! ahmygawddd. the next time we meet up, we go k-box k? then we'll go study together. heh-heh-heh. cant wait to see you the next time! had a great time with you(:


TUESDAY was spent with these two ah mas aka jess and qi.. (with nicky ps-ing us because of her bowling training)
AT...
playing combat skirmish. it is the only painless real-life outdoor combat simulation game in Singapore and its so freaking fun like mad. omg, i had a real time of my life running around fort canning trying to kill my opponents (qihui). felt as though i was a soldier fighting a war for my country. HAHAHA. but it was really damn fun. we signed up for the membership and i tell you right, next time we must play combat skirmish as part of class gathering. CONFIRM 100% FUN AND LAUGHTHER. hanged around with jess youth grp after that and i guess ive learnt a lot. her youth group is small and cosy and its like everybody knows everybody. new creation is now getting so big that sometimes its kinda hard to even know who are all the people in campus itself. hurhur but i think its nice to have a whole new feel of things which ive heard people say of, but never really experienced it myself.

AND TODAY morning, met up with the pw grp members to discuss about OP. was super pissed off at first because i walked to my bus stop ONLY to find my wallet lying happily at home. sfhdkghd;fsgdfkl!!! okay nvm. our grp is the best. we're supposed to meet at 9am and everyone reached at about 10am. so our next meeting would be at 9am which also mean it will start at 10am XD

went back to sch for chinese with laoshi. laoshi is always so super funny. hurhur. odac at 3pm. learnt how to tie the ropes and stuff for rock climbing and mr ho is really niceeeeee. hes like so patient in teaching me and qi what are the things to take note of for rockclimbing. then it started to rain heavily. after odac, me and qi went home AND RIGHT, i tell you i love the rain but im damn scared of lightning!! and to top it off, qi is also super scared of lightning and we had NO umbrella. so in the end, we PRAYED for no lightning to strike us when we cross the road and grabbed each others hands and ran to the mrt station. :X

okay, God bless and byezzzzz.

OUCH, im having backacheeee.

haha anyway, theres a thanksgiving board in school to write about who we want to thank and yada yada..so ive decided to write......
HEE. after sch, went for tao huay with qi, nicky& jess. lotsa laughter and jokes. heh. XD

thennnn, we went dragonboating for odac. it was really fun and kinda scary for some parts. but overall, i enjoyed myself a lot.

qi, me, siying and mel. i really like them a lot in odac (:

mmm the haze is quite bad as u can see..

the dragonboats. hurhur.

siying, yuda, lester, ME& weihao.

ziyi, qi, lester, hakim& edmund.

weihao, lester, ziyi, edmund, ME and hakimmm.

lester, me, qi, serene and edmund.

edmund, ziyi, lester, serene, yuda, weihao and hakim.

then went for dinnerrrrr and ate a lot. felt superr full.

TODAYYY morning and afternoon was spent at the gp seminar thingy at 4th level. and it was super good. especially what coach meddie shared with us. it was so relevant to me. and then i got prayed for and it was about the spirit of dominance. the presence of God was definitely there and though i didnt cry much, in my heart, i felt the peace and i know that things are not gonna be the same anymore. cant make it for lunch with caregroup because i gotta go meet my pw grp members to do pw! haha and so i was an hour late because service ended kinda late. heh.

did our slides and now, all we have to do is to write our scripts and do a good job on monday. come on grp members, we can do it! YO. JIAYOU. and then we had a mini 'group bonding' session. hahaha. decided to take photos with nicky's bro new imac. eh, i tell you, its damn cool OKAY. its just like errrr..taking neoprints? so fun alright! then we watched tv prog together. hee. niceee.

ALRIGHT, I LOVE THE PICTURES. HAHAHA.

first tmr. goodnight and GOD BLESS YA ALL. (:

FINALLY,

hello people, hello world. (:

havent blogged for a week and SO MUCH has happened. this week passed by so slowly. cant really remember what happened EXCEPT that i was on the verge of retaining. and i tell you, this feeling is no joke. its the worst fucked up feeling i've ever felt. say on the average i cried like 3 times a day, cant seem to put my heart into doing anything and felt so so so upset. it was like i would do anything and i mean ANYTHING to get promoted. and it doesnt help when your teacher ask you to be mentally prepared for the WORST. and its even WORST when you know that you cant do anything at all, except to wait. its like living in uncertainties every single day while waiting for the decisions to be made. part of you knows that you wont get retained but theres always another part of you which says, ' WHAT IF...just what if...' then what am i gonna do? and every time teachers mentioned the word 'results' or something to do with it, tears cant help but well up in your eyes and before you know it, your crying again. A LOT of thoughts came running through my mind and i just wished that i had another chance. if only. id make sure i grab the chance and cherish it. i really felt like all doors have closed on me and even though i tried telling myself that i have other alternatives, at the end of the day, who am i kidding? i know deep within me that the only way i want things to turn out would be to get me promoted.

THANKFULLY, Jesus was always there for me. all the friends who knew about this matter all pointed me back to God and they never fail to remind me that He loves me dearly. i knew that although i couldnt really take in their advices, it was clear that the only solution i had was to cling on to Jesus. thanks especially to serene, huizhi, denise and wanling. ANDAND qi, nicky, jess for crying with me when i bawled like a small baby and also to 06A03 plus other ppl who were really concerned. weeeeeeeeee clarice is reallyreally touched. like stan said, 'it would be a good learning experience for you at the end of the day' and indeed, i guess it was? but i NEVER EVER EVER wanna feel like that EVER again. AMEN.

anyway, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO CHENPEI!
thanks for being sucha joy in my life!
CJC buddy, who ps-ed me halfway! hurhurhur. no la, just kidding alright.

and qi is the number 1 ah ma.
nicky is the number 2 funniest girl evereverever.

eating tao huay could produce comic relief too.
"whats the soup ah?"
actually referring to the peanut dumplings in the soyabean milk.
AND
i have never seen a girl who doesnt know that the syrup of the tao huay will sink to the bottom. so this girl ate the tao huay on top and left the syrup to sink at the bottom. and im like 'woah, you dont like the syrup? its at the bottom.' and then this girl said 'oh, no wonder its so bitter.....' i stared at her and her face changes immediately. BUT MY FACE WAS EVEN BETTER.

TOTALLY 100% @_@

but what to do? thats the way i like my nicky done. (:

God bless ya all.

sch today was quite bad. got back some of our results and some classmates were upset by the results. makes me feel really sad when i see them sad too. BUT cheeeeeeer up people! we're gonna work harder alright. nods.

after sch, went to meet serene at ps and actually we wanted to watch a movie. but then the timing werent good so we ended up having lunch at pepper lunch and then we just slacked and bummed around. talking nonsense and laughing our way off. heh. walked a lot too. haha. then we went to raffles place to get a niceeeeeee balloon for qihui. cuz shes feeling really upset and i didnt know what to do so thought of an idea to get her a balloon. lol. then nicco came and i wanted to take a nice photo of the three of us. but the photos that we all took werent nice so i kept forcing nicco to take a shot of three of us for like mmm 10 times? hehe and he looked like he was gonna kill me anytime man.

then they went for bs and i went to find qi to give her the balloon. dotz dotz dotz. tuition after that! haha mrs khan and all celebrated terence and my bday together (: weeeeeee as usual, tuition is damn funny. AND RIGHT, weien told us a joke. he said a bird was flying in the air when he laid an egg. but why didnt the egg break?
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can you guess why? aiyahhhh, i tell you la.

because right, the bird was wearing underwear! HEHEHE. okay (i see nicky, jess and qi rolling eyes at me)

fri, sat& sunday are gonna be busy days. hohoho. alright, God bless ya all ^_^

only 6 people came to sch today. heh. me, qi, jess, audrey, jesse& mal. so we decided to skip the amazing race and met up with nicky. headed to cine to catch a movieeeee. john tucker must die. haha the show's pretty good i must say. (: lunch at long john and then cabbed back to school.

had odac exco/committee meeting after that. and then me and qi went for meeting for the tourguide thingy. haha so yes yes me and qi will the two out of the many tourguides on sa openhouse day. 9am to 4pm. heh. odac after that and we played games. the games were all quite funnnnnn. heh. and then right mr lam kept making fun of me and qi. he said how come we are gonna be the tourguides?! and we were like why? cannot hur? then he said, 'later the people all cannot see you both.' dhgdlfjghsdgsd;gj;sdjg;dkgsdkhfg!!!! thanks ahhhhhh.

after odac, tao huay with qi aka fatimah (mr lam called her that heehee) and then home sweeeet home. normal lessons tmr. ahhhhhhhhhhh. long day long day. gp, econs, chi, history, econs. welcome back.

PS, im always here if you need someone to talk to, small boy. ^_^

alright, first of all, PROMOS ARE OVER! haha, oh boy i have been waiting for promos to end like so so so long ago. anyway, chem was bad as usual, but i did attempt to study a little. so yeahhhhh. after chem, we had briefing on pw. ohmygawd. intensive pwpwpw&chichichi. rahhhh, anyway yesterday was also my SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY!

hohoho. thanks to ALL who wished me happy birthday thru smses, (huizhi, serene, weihao, yaoguang, kezia, weixiong, mok, spencer, wilson, huiqin, cui, jane, huiping, yuda, vic, zhuang, wanling, teepeng, mummy, kenneth lim, karmum, alice, amelia, gracia, pong, gary, shirlynn, angel, lilian, sandra, nicco, zihao, leongs family, zhen kai, mark, reuben, brother chua, godma, tricia, godpa, and leon) thru frienster, msn, phone calls and of course those who gave me presents! AND EMAILS! (weixiong and fav cuzzie racheltanswee***) thanks michael who called at 12am on 6th oct and CHEN PEI who called at 12am on 7th oct! and those who wished me happy belated birthday today! hahaha.

thanks to 06A03 who celebrated my birthday with meeeeeee!

thanks alpha for the noteeeeeebook and the postcard! haha imma use the notebook for math next time! dont quit math tuition k! my tuitionbuddy! lets work hard together!

thanks cui for the postcard! i appreciate it lots!

thanks qi, nicky & jess! heh. for buying me the cake, giving me the box full of presents! haha im reallyyyyy happy! yeah the food, cd(which im listening to now), the top and the AHEM AHEM. hee. life in sch would be really different would you guys! (: love ya all. thanks for making a difference.

me, qi, jess and nic went to town to eat and walk around haha. took neoprints! ohmygawd. at first they looked so tired but went really high while taking the neoprints! hahaha climbing and posing to take pictures. wanted to catch a movie but too bad, the timing werent right. so yeah then we all squeezed unto one bench and juz sat down together, cosyyyyy baby. heh. shopping and walking till our legs were breaking. ha. weeeeee had a great time with you guys! thanks for everything! XD

after that, i met up with serene the bum. ate and talked like theres no tmr. hehehe. then we walked around. and i was trying to bully her and she was like 'wo ren wo ren' and it was damn funny. actually she wanted to come my house and she even look up the street directory ONLINE to check what bus comes to my house. haha but plan spoilt. sorry babe. she gave me this really cuteeeeee cupboard kinda like thingy and wrote me a poem! like woah, haha how romantic but she say cant show to anybody. XD thanks serene darling for making my bday sweet and nice and gullibly filled with you!

then then i met up with zhuanghuizhi the sister! heh. sorry i kinda spoilt your plan too! ate at swensens and she sang me a birthday song alone&along with the ice cream. bravo! haha. she gave me a shirt and a card made by herself. preeetty. then we walked and chilled at starbucks and talked lots. and she cabbed me home. haha ending my seventeenth birthday perfectly. thanks jiejie for everything too! for being so patient and thoughtful. im really blessed to have a sister like u! heh. hope u had fun too!

thanks brother chua for the card!

and thanks to relatives for the angbaossss and the superdupernice lana cake! XD

so yeah that ended my day! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! couldnt ask for more. most of all, thank u heavenly father for making my day great. heh. ohhhhhh, and im still accepting presents and wishes if you want to give me any! XD

and the haze is killing people. i hope it rains tonight and washes the haze away. God bless.

ah, i juz woke up. from a headache ): i dislike headaches like mad. it hurts like crap. arghhhhh. oh well, at least i had a good sleep.

anyway, econs was sfj;fjsd;fjsdkjfdlgh!!!! tough la. the essays were tough and the case study was tough also!! zzzomg. and the hall was super freaking hot. i dont like sitting in the middle of the hall cause it makes me sweat like mad. with the tie. tian ah.

history tmr. am pretty scared. hurhur. 3 essays to finish in 2hr 15mins. woahhhhhh. nvm, grace and wisdom to do history. heeeeeeeeee.

oh, i went on to friendster juz now and my pri sch friend sent me this msg, "Omg...Look who is there..Clarice!!! Wow, u look like a decent lady now..Hehe glad to meet my old friend here.."

I MEAN I DONT LOOK LIKE A DECENT LADY WHEN I WAS YOUNG MEHHHHH.

haha k la random stuff. but these random stuff are making me happy in the midst of promo. okayzzz byezzz and hello to nationalism, globalisation of cold war and the end of cold war. come on i love u guyzzz so love me too alright!

oh and when i say i wont be going online, i mean i wont go MSN. OKAY. THXBYE.

hahaha aiyahhhhhhhhh sorry ppl i knew i cannot resist the com. hehehe.

anyway, i juz woke up. thank goodness paper starts at one. heh. and mmm im going to school soon. i know you people wish me all the best right, haha and that i will do well. amen. thank youuuuuuuuu cuz when two or more agree, it shall be done ^_^

okay la, that was damn random. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i like to eat ice cream to cheer me up when i feel stressed/ when i feel like my brain has no more space to memorize the info, especially chocolate ice cream. XD

alright, gtg. hahah. byezzzz and God bless ya all!

PS, did i mention before i really really like the rain? because............theres a secret between me and Jesus about the rain. (;

econs tmr,
then history,
math,
chem

and im done with promos. heh. will juz try my best and God will do the rest. amen.

meanwhile, i dont think ill be coming online until friday. (though i think i will come online) hahaha. okay la, byezzzzzzzz.

first today with serene, vanessa, jia ying and kanna. passed stan the graphical calculator so he had better do well with my GC. XD heh. sermon was really good although as usual, i doze off for ten mins. haha. and today, i realized that its really when you focus on God that the things which you desire will come after you instead of you going after them. and when God restores your sadness/anger/hurt with joy/peace/happiness, He really restores it a hundred fold! i tell you the joy is literally like this ^_^ i was grinning from ear to ear.

after service, serene went to find her mum cuz her dad and sis arent around. so she bought kfc for her mum. sweeeeeeeeet child. heh, but we didnt wanna eat kfc cuz we didnt feel like it so we went to crystal jade. heh. and talked a lot. haaaaa, and right, serene is really the most gullible girl on Earth! goshhhh. she asked me these qns:

1) eh usually how you go to school ah.
2) oh then how you go home.
3) take bus ah?
4) take what bus?
5) ohhh from potong pasir mrt station?
6) FRIDAY WHAT TIME YOU END SCHOOL.
7) after school you got anything on and when i said yea smth like class outing then her face become the 'huhhhhhhhhhhhhh' face.

HEEHEEHEE. bumbum. since u end exams on thursday while i end mine on fri, it gives u ONE extra day to think of something newwww! but i love my serene this way! with LOL. (lots OF love).

after lunch, went for econs tuition. then i went to study a bit by myself at secret place before going for math tuition. and ohmygawd. got teased by yaoguang like mad. hes like so retarded. and i think im really really still not prepared for math! hurhur. k just do my best and God will do the rest. after math, i thought of going to study a bit more BUT i was having (am still having) quite a bad headache, so ive decided to go home. gonna take a panadol and see how things go..

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happy children's day to YOU, whose reading this ^_^
arent u glad ur still a child?
cuz no matter what,
you'll always be a child to our heavenly daddy.

cheers and all the best to those taking lit, math, econs, bio, chem dotz dotz dotz whatever la alright! and God bless me for the promos which starts on tues till fri. if you end promos earlier than me, BE NICE. dont SUAN make me feel envious alright. (: and im beginning to like huge fonts. hahaha.

even if its sweet nothings,
i dont mind.
i'll still choose to believe,
believe every word that you said.

did i lose my love to someone better,
and does she love you like i do.....

yeah, she does.

alright, so today i woke up at ten am plus cuz as usual, i was freaking tired. and i dreamt that i went to japan and had a wild time shopping. i even dreamt of the clothes i tried on! hurhur. juz shows what im being deprived of for this promos huh. reached suntec earlier to study a bit. then met up with gracia for women's meeting. its really really good. makes me feel very loved by Jesus and you know, sometimes all you need is really just a touch from God to change your whole life forever. thats what i realized today. didnt go for the praise and worship though cause if i go, then my whole entire saturday would be taken up and promos is on tuesday and i havent finish studying. dinner with gracia and then studied a bit more at macs. got a bit distracted and tired, so i went to raffles city to take a walk and bought myself some pens&markers. aunt came and fetched me home after that.

damn freaking tired ah. think im going off to bed soon.

and i always like it when it rains.

God Bless (:

a smile/call/message a day makes clarice's world swayyyyyyy. (:

right, so took a cab to school for consultation today cause i was really too freaking tired yesterday and i woke up late. and then i alighted at the side gate ONLY to find that the side gate was LOCKED. so i had to walk one big round to the main gate. thanks a lot for the morning exercise ah.

-math consulation
-history consultation
- econs consultation

and it all went pretty well. lunch in school with gloria. wantonnnnnn noodles! heh. after that, i studied.

and now, im homeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

my internet is working at a super slooooooooooooow speed. so i think im off to bed soon. oh, i currently like the song the day you went away by roger creager a lot.

goodnight world and God bless.

sometimes i think im really foolish to smile so widely and blissfully over just one sms from a...friend and its funny how one simple sms can make your whole day right and bright. i hope you know that i care for you as a friend. i think people should smile more from the bottom of their hearts because they make others feel happy too when they smile (: its like a priceless smile you know. nods.

TODAY, even though i didnt do much, i feel happy for i-dont-know what reason. i feel happy, full and tired. and im. sO. sLEEpy. . .

tomorrow, im going back to school for teachers consultation.

i hope my school does something great for me tmr. not about the consultation part though. its ABOUT . . . . . . .

goodnight world.

hello, morning world!

woke up kinda early today. bet you guys are all still sleeping. anyway, macs for breakfast and im talking to charissa online now. ohmygawd i miss charissa and teacher kev like super lots. and they're growing so much. ones a coach now, and the other an assistant coach soon to be. makes me feel encourage when i talk to people like that you know, cuz i know that my God has so much more installed for me as i grow. rahh, its gonna be a good journey in the end. (:

econs, history, math and chem. left with these four papers to go. 6 days to revise! go clarice!

chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun chem is easy chem is fun

rahhhhhhh.

hello people! promos tmr promos tmr! hahah. aiyah actually im kinda scared man. its always like that. the start of an exam always make me feel super nervous. but im just giving it all to Jesus yeah. ill do my best and daddy will do the rest. anyway, all the best to everyone whose having their promos! esp to a3 and my fellow comrades aka my friendS. i think this coming week is gonna be the busiest week of my year 2006 cuz theres one week study break to study!

anyway, first today with serene, huizhi, gracia, vanessa, jiaying and kanna. sundays are the best! but even better without tuitionS. haha. msg was pretty good but i almost fell asleep and then i heard someone blowing at me, retarded-ly. heh. lunch after that at carls junior..the food there they serve are like zomg super big. but no worries, our lovely sereneseah always finish up her food no matter rain or shine(:

tuitions after that and it kinda made me think quite a lot...
like actually no, i wouldnt want to make the first move cuz im really scared im gonna get hurt. and besides, it doesnt really matter anymore. maybe i dont need someone whose so smart, so good looking, so.... good at everything else. maybe all i need is someone who can make me laugh and run with me if i wanted to, and stop with me if i feel like stopping. and just.........being himself. i think it will make my world happier. rather than me trying to strike up a conversation with you, why not juz let someone come find me and totally sweep me off my feet? im tired of trying to always look out for you.

mrt is coming!!
k: do you wanna go over?
me: huh huh huh *panics* should we? wah i damn scared the door close
k: haha wont la i dont think it will close yet. it will usually wait for us
me: huh u sure or not..aiyah dont want la, we wait for the next train
k: haha okay
me: eh dont want la dont want!! i think we can make it faster run faster!
and k runs with me.

sure, nothing special about him cuz hes like my normal tuition friend. i think ppl would think hes like a big time loser..cuz i thought so too at first..but after today, i think he made me realise all i need is just a simple guy. haha and that guy has yet to be found.

YUP and now im back home! haha just had dinner and im gonna bath, read a bit and off to dream land! (:

God bless!

When There Was Me And You - High School Musical

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you


nope im not emo-ing. haha damn nice lyrics and super nice song. high school musical is love (:

alright, im feeling better now! (:

so im back to school tmr.

anyway, just a random thought. how come mugging is equivalent to studying very hard for a long period of time? cuz i dont see how mug = study? hahahah. okay la, i was bored. :/

OKAY, this time im really sick.

i said yesterday that i kept sneezing right. so before i went to sleep last night, i took the flu medicine and went to bed early (10pm plusplus) then i woke up several times in the middle of the night to sneeze and cough. so hard to sleep in peace pls. then this morning, i had a really bad blocked nose. and i went to school. okay, so econs lecture, nothing went into my head cuz i was feeling really lousy by my nose and throat. and i had a bad headache. i felt like i was kinda spinning SO ive decided to go see a doctor cuz promos is looming and i dont wanna fall sick during that period. its gonna be so so so troublesome. had to wait for ms wong for an hour though, cuz she had lessons after the lecture. so i waited, ate chicken porridge with cui, audrey and yuanyu. talked lame stuff. haha. then ms wong came to com lab to pass me the green slip. awww, shes so sweet pls.

so i took a cab to see the family doctor. i dont like to consult other doctors except him when i feel that im really going to fall sick. yeah so im down with a common cold, with flu, cough and fever. then i just asked him, ' hey, by the way, how do you study for your A levels ah?' and so the consultation turned out to be a short talk about studies too. he's from NJC btw. (dr vivian balakrishnan too!) he said at that time there were only RJ, hwachong and NJ. and he said i really have to be consistent and ask the teacher if i have any queries. and like by the end of year 1, i REALLY have to understand my year 1 syllabus. which is why he said that he went back to sch almost EVERYDAY during the holidays to study. and he said that i have to exercise too. haha so i was lamenting on how tough the A levels is now and how i have no time to exercise cuz of promos? haha and the talk turned out pretty good. heh, hes kinda like my role model. ^_^

and so, i just ate the medicine. i think ill go sleep now and then wake up later on to do some work. ohhhh, he gave me two days mc (i know audrey and cui you both are jealous) i told him to put your names but he knows my name. so, im sorry! hahahahaha. but i think i will be going to school tmr cuz i just feel like going. yeahhhh, thats all now. cyahhhh.

THIS IS probably the PROUDEST THING which i've done this week (:

and even thou im being called a noob by nicky, haha hey, at least im her dear noob you know! yeah was home by 3pm but i kinda slacked till now. hurhur. tried to sleep but to no avail because i was using the tissue paper like its free flow (sneezinglikemad) and its so hard to sleep cuz when i lie down on my bed, my nose get blocked. :/









PROMOS faster end!!!

I FINALLY FINISHED MY RETARDED SHITASS BIBLIOGRAPHY. sdjfdksfghdfjkghsdjfghsdjkghdhgsdg.

first today at indoor with serene, gracia, wanling, jiaying, kanna and the rest of the peeps. super good i tell you. the whole indoor was filled and it was just so homely. as in usually we only go for first service but this time its like four services combined together? (: ohhhh and i miss dare so freaking much. talked to charissa, teacher kev and saw all the familiar faces. haha felt really happy. its like they're juz like my family even though im in campus now. hurhur.

pepper lunch with gracia after that and then she went home to study. hope it was a productive day for you! yeah then i went to my secret burger king to study. studied history. tmr got history test la! and i havent finish studying yet, as usual. history is like omgzzzz so much to study. math and econs went pretty alright. my math is still bad as usual. integration alone makes me forget ALL my other formulas and now i gotta memorize them all over again..and i juz realised that my back chapters for econs are really lousy..like i dont really know what are the factors and stuff?

this week is gonna be real hectic. daddy, i juz pray that this week, you'll give me and all my lovely friends who are taking promos the strength and wisdom and ur grace to go thru this week. everyone's feeling stressed up and i too feel it. but daddy, everythings in your hands now. i can forget about sleeping, i can forget about watching tv, i can forget about almost everything..but daddy, dont ever let me forget about your love for me. its all im depending on now to get thru this promos. amen.

God bless ya all.

from gracia :

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
Gender: male
Pointers (WITH NO RANKING):
1) man of god.
2) goooood sense of humour
3) faithful
4) forgiving
5) have a gd sense of fashion((: in other words, metrosexual(:
6) have a stable career
7) down-to-earth(: but still a lil romantic
8) intellectual

i want clarice to do this(:

!!!!! dsaf' jaf;kjfaskfjas; yeah so here i am..btw, those which has this face (: for gracia, i think u all know whose shes thinking about. talk about METROSEXUAL. if you understand
gluconeogenesis, you understand it all. nods.


Gender: male (DUH?!?!)
Pointers: (WITH NO RANKING)
1) christian (but if hes not, nvm. i can bring him to church) ^_^
2) love me more than i love him
3) friendly
4) have a sense of humor
5) gentlemen *important*
6) sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet
7) a bit of looks can alrdy. ( but even if i say with looks, the guys i like and whom i think is good looking, usually everyone say not good looking. haha )
8) unique

today
is
a
very
boring
day
tmr
theres
church
and
i
miss
my
friends
very
much.
thx
bye.

just watched the korean show which jess lent me..millionaire's first love. hurhur. haha damn freaking touching plsssss. i wonder who is the one whom you will consider as your first love?

is it someone you like really freaking lots?
muz it be a two way kinda thing?
or maybe.......juz the first person whom you ever liked in your whole life?

haha damn confusing.. heh.

woahhhhhhhh congrats to chenpei for getting BEAUTIFUL results!

oral communication - A
business statistics - A+
computer & information processing - distn.
organisational behaviour - distn.
microeconomics - distn.
gps = 3.9091

MUCH contrary to mine. sianzzz X1000000000000000. AIYA, procrastinate so much also still must study.

i go read newspaper now.

yesteday i spent my whole night doing eom and today i spent my whole entire night doing my freaking WR and even though i feel like ive done a lot, theres still quite a bit to do and i ACTUALLY WASTED MY NIGHT AWAY, skipping singapore idol to do my wr and its still not FINISHED. damn freaking irritating.

i feel very irritated now cuz i havent do my history essays which ive long wanted to do. all because of PWWWW. jf;sdkf;asdkgjd;slgjsdlkgj;sdfklgjsdkflgjsd;flg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aiyah, i dont want to talk anymore.

sometimes things really happen when you least expect it. its like so sudden. zzz dotz. and make that least-expect-it-things to happen x2 :/

so many stuff to do. its like never ending.

i wonder what my reply would be if one day you ask if we could meet up to just catch up.

but for now,

i think im at least contented with what ive have and being able to feel okay without you in my life. weeeeeeee and im off to try to finish up my work.

God bless.

im currently reading my history. history rocks! dotz.

but in the midst of studying, at least i know Jesus is with me and so are my friends. heh.

[chuazihao] somorp=deniater says:
2nd time they made such a dumb mistake
[chuazihao] somorp=deniater says:
they nv learn

referring to the wrong timings of TESTS.

&

from the nick

tranquility in my mind says: to =====> tranquility in my mind. EOM SHIT says:

hahaha, i think thats really funny. aiyahhhhhhhhh go clarice!

first today with serene, gracia, jiaying and kannan(?) haha. fell asleep AGAIN. tsk, im really gonna sleep early next week! lunch at crystal jade after that. studied with gracia and huizhi at secret BK. (now secret no more. secret toilet no more too) and math tuition after that!

after tuition, mmm i was gonna meet gracia to go home together. then i saw marc, yaoguang and liwei. then yaoguang and liwei said bye to marc so i went up to marc and said hi. so yeah then we talked quite a lot. met gracia and the three of us walked to the train station together.

sorry, i cannot really gather my thoughts now.

BUT IM REALLY HAPPY TODAY. XD

huhhhhh i just remembered i have econs case study to do after school tmr and i havent touch my econs AT ALL YET! somemore keith asked whether got econs test tmr i still say dont have dont have! :/ and i have history lecture test tmr and i havent finish studying yet! ahhhhhhhh nooooooOOOOO.

hello people! the past few days felt wasted cause i didnt do anything much. cant remember what i did too except running out of sch to macs with cui&jess at 9.30am on thurs (when econs is supposed to start) to buy breakfast! then ran back to sch for lessons. haha cheap thrill huh. BUT i like. XD

TODAY TODAY was superfreaking fun and good though. morning and afternoon was spent doing nothing except juz chatting with people online. THEN, about evening time, met up with QI, JESS & NIC for dinner at new york. weeeeeeeeeee. and qi, the ahma said that barney is a BROWN BEAR horxzxz. we nearly fainted. green candy floss tasted good. heh.

after dinner, nic's dad fetched us to indoor stadium for WESTLIFE CONCERT!!! haha and nic's dad is reallyyyyy nice. haha thanks nic+nic's dad for sending us there. heh. then we took turns to take picture with a rolls royce..a tourist asked us to help him take a picture too! haha damn funny la. reached indoor stadium and....

teehee. took pictures again while waiting for the concert to start. haha. then the concert started...

and awwwwww the concert was so freaking good pls..SHANE IS MY NEW FOUND LOVE. yeah totally enjoyed ourselves. heh. but it was kinda short though..they didnt sing if i let you go!! i was longing for that song man! but it was still good overall ^_^

went to raffles place to slack after that and ah ma and aunty always walk very slow so not hip and happening like me and nic..tsk. haha. rested at bk cuz the other shops were all closing alrdy. yeah then we all went home. anddddd there'll be more to come..AFTER PROMOS.

i really enjoyed myself heh. tmr studying with serene baby in the morning! alright, gotta go now. BUT before i leave, I REALLY OMGajfdsfdsfghdkfgsdgj;sdlgjvk;dsgj LIKE SHANE! HES THE MAN ALRIGHT!
NITEZ!

hello people!

yesterday while i was sleeping soundly, qi called..

me: hello?
qi: eh clarice, where are you?!
me: mmm at home? why?
qi: you not coming for econs ah?!
me: what time is it now?
qi: uhhh 9..9.05 like that.
me: @_@ !!!!!!!!

so there goes my first attempt to be studious? right, so met up with the other odac people and we went for indoor rock climbing! it was funnnn. haha and qi keeps saying CLARICE is on top so she must climb up. hahaha okay luh. i kinda distorted the fact. its not CLARICE LUH ALRIGHT. but overall, i had a good time :D

at night, family gathering at the resort. mmm, dinner was GOOD. teehee. then did some catching up with the cousinssss. its funny how reuben now know my pri and sec sch friends and how i know his too. haha. and hes damn funny. soooo we just talked a lot..and it was niceeeeee.

TODAY, math remedial for THREE HOURS. but it was productive. finally know inequalities better. hurhur. yeah after that was braindead for 1 hour plus. just sat and stoned. went to ask about the archery thingy after that and home sweet home. OH, on my way back (on the train) theres this kid who was super duper cute. he was like talking super loudly to these three teenage guys whose about my age. and hes like super cute can! then the teenage guy whom the boy was talking to was like feeling damn shy and all... you know when the boy and his dad reached the station, before they alighted, the boy HUGGED the teenage guy LEHHHHH. its like soooo awwwwwww. children really know how to express how they feel huh. i dont know, but it just feels so heartwarming to see that.

and i just got home......................................gonna go pack my room and study. bye! ^_^

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY GRACIA GAN! (:

first was okay today. after that, we kinda celebrated gracia's birthday! haha hope she liked it. ^_^

AND, that was the only nice and good and fun part. the rest was a flop, floP, FLOP. math tuition was super bad and i skipped econs.

IF THE WORLD IS FILLED WITH GUYS LIKE *****, ILL MAKE AN EXCEPTION AND DIE A VIGIN. NO REGRETS.

ENOUGH SAID.

HELLO PEOPLE!

havent been blogging for like about a week cuz i was really busy like mad. its the busiest week of my august-september month. haha. okay, let me recap what i did over the week.

sat - campus&dinner with seahseah.

sun - first&tuitions

mon - sch, studied for math test and did a bit of work

tue - sch, math test, english tution and teck chuan's bday chalet. haha. it was great seeing old school peeps. and boy, do the boys grow..gosh, all of them are like so much taller than me! haha but it was good anyhow(:

wed - sch, odac cancelled, studied econs test with qi&siying at suntec starbucks. heard the saddest real life story from the two people sitting beside us.

thurs - teachers' day, ECONS test (whateverrrr!!), lunch with 4E3 people! woahhhhh, i miss ALL of them! haha they're still as funny as ever and always making fun of each other. teehee. time spent was greatttttt, slacked at coffeebean with huizhi, gracia, david&eelen, saw perlin, cjc drama concert with huizhi. roy, well done! saw shamir! haha. then huizhi saw her friends. dinner at food republic after that. hokkien mee and i saw number twentyfourrrr. LOL. called up the three girls to tell them about it. haha. talked a lot and then home.

she wants two kids so badly..see, she alrdy chose the clothes that she wants to buy for them next time..TSK.

fri - FIRST AID TEST. I PASSED ALREADY OKAY! no more first aid foreverzxzxz. after that, krunk with serene and sheena. at first, met up with jane and her two other friends. saw quite a no. of ppl, both from sec and jc. hurhur. haha. then right then right, saw yao guang and one more tuition friend and their friends. and then in the end, we all just joined each other for a while. ^_^ haha. it was kinda funny and overall, it was pretty good cuz the company was good. cabbed home and serene stayed over. serene is a bum i tell you. haha shes like the bummest girl ever. haha fell asleep at 6am and woke up at 1pm. ate breakfast and then serene went home and here i am.

haha okay, thats about my week. and mmm more to come after promos which end on SIX OCTOBER! haha. coolio..but for now, i think i better put in my best to study hard. c yah all and God bless!