crooked teeth - death cab for cutie

wanton mee + bubble tea + coconut&peanut cake + kids corner = LOVE. love the awesome awesome talks that we have, like totally. more of such talks okay! (:

there are times where i am excited to move up, yet there are times where i feel really reluctant to. i am really comfortable with where i am right now and for once, cg really feels like a family to me. i know that there is a time and season for everything and our Godly friendships does not end when we move up. i sure will miss everyone so im going to make the best out of everything now. yup. i think i'm bound to cry like mad during farewell (being the emo person i am duhhhh). just thinking about it makes me wanna cry alrdy. haha but i know that its all gonna turn out good. sooo......-smiles-

if its Your calling, then im sure You will bring it come to pass. amen.

some guys really need to learn how to talk to girls.

okay dokay, byeeeee! work starts tmr but overall, i had a really good rest! God bless!

colours of McCafe...

i slept for like 13 hours today! great rest i would say. no alarm clock ringing and with the phone on silent mode. sweeeeeeet. (:

simple dinner like this makes me happy! feels so good to talk, laugh and reminisce about the a levels days..heh and i miss the colours of McCafe. the days where we each have our own table to study, went to the arcade to play when we all feel stressed up, all of us trying to solve ONE math question...hurr..and not to mention, the day before my history paper where i cried SO badly and was for the first time so super stressed up over my exams and i really felt like giving up..how you guys really cheered me up and encouraged me not to give up and all..thanks guys..i really really appreciate it! (gracia, graham, huizhi, imran, shaik, weyzi) we rock yeah! (:

okay, i need to pack my room! its getting messy and this time round, i can really pack my room by throwing all the notes away! i think my room is going to be really clean after that. :D

i miss my class alrdy! espeically the girls! we really have to meet up soon okay! bye and God bless everyone!

When will i see your face again?

phew. i just applied for the uni courses. and there's so much info to read about. i tried to read every single detail that they gave at first, but as i move on from nus to ntu to smu, my eyes began to wander and wonder off. hurrr. right. but at least, everything's settled now. thank you abba that my future is secured in your hands. amen.

oh interestingly, i came across this qns on ntu application site whereby we could choose to write an essay on either one of the two topics given. it's kinda like an optional thingy, but i thought the questions were rather interesting. i like the one which they asked, 'Describe a person who has had an influence in you, and share with us why and/or how the person has influenced you.'. i was pretty surprised and amazed at whose the first person that appeared into my mind when i thought about this question. He is the one who said that we're both very very alike in the sense that we both think way too much and are very emotional people. I couldn't agree any better. (:

i'm looking forward to this week because i finally get to work five days! (i sound like a seriously deprived and overworked kid) so i hope i'll be able to meet up with everyone whom i've missed! alright, going to sleep now! and im not going to set my alarm clock this time round. just going to...sleep. :D goodnight and God bless everyone! cheers!

'hello sirrrr, can i help you?'
'i'm beyond help.'

everytime a customer tells me this, i cant help but laugh.

hello world.

hi hi hi hi hi. (:



life's been pretty good thus far and i'm really glad that the a levels is finally over and another new chapter begins. i really learnt a lot during these two years and i would say that the two years had indeed been a fruitful one. i really love 06A03. you guys are really the best i've ever had. and i miss you all already!

its time to catch up with friends whom i havent met for ages and also to be more active. hoho. (not that im not)

so cheers! will blog more laterz cause cause cause its my off day! weeeeeeeeeeeeezer. :p

thanks dad, for controlling my emotions and just taking over my feelings. you know its great, because from a third person point of view, i could really see so clearly. how silly i was to want to do the things that i want to do which will probably make me regret a lot. i never knew that was me until i saw myself in others. and im really thankful that you took over and that i made that decision. although maybe sometimes i still wish that it could turn out the other way, deep down i know that i'm really glad nothing happened. thank you so much.

hello world, i just screwed up my life. thank you very much.

today has been one roller coaster day, with all my emotions in a big whirl. i'm but afterall just a girl. but im glad that im feeling okay now. thank God for God and thank God for the friends. surprisingly, my work place people are so nice when i told them what happened. its like..i was just touched. so thank you.

its okay, time will tell. if you're the one, you'll still be the one five to ten years down.

meeting up with serene today was good! had dinner with her at our usual wanton noodle stall with bubble tea. -smiles- then we just walked around and then prayed before going home. it was really really good. (: meeting up with huizhi and gracia for lunch tmr and then friday, its the school peepos.. i miss my whole class alrdy!

so i guess, today i finally know the answer. why do i feel the same tinge of sadness that i felt three years ago, but by a totally different person this time round? they said it was probably brotherly love but i always wish you were more than a brother to me. but i guess to you, ill always be someone like a sister to you. i knew i messed things up that day. and i wonder if we'll still be close friends but everything just felt different. and it doesnt make things easier that you're YOU. i know that you'll always be there for me, but i dont think you believe that i could be there for you too and the feeling just dont feel good because i keep telling you how i feel and you dont. its like a one way traffic. but i guess today, now, i know. i assume and think too much again. and the feeling that i felt three years ago came back and it makes me wanna cry because i told myself i dont ever wanna feel like that ever again. continue hiding if you think you're good at it and if you think you dont make me feel sad. cause i think im pulling out because i dont wanna be a stumbling block to you.

okay, enough of emokid89@hotmail.com -breathes in and out- im going to be okay. yup. i know in good hands because i have a father who loves me more than anyone else in this world. (but for now i just feel like crying)

You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands of those You had created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign
In heaven and earth exalted

I really want to worship You my Lord
You have won my heart
And I am Yours for ever and ever
I will love You
You are the only one who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to You in adoration

one of my favourite songs of all time. the lyrics just pop into my mind when i woke up and i went to listen to it while lying in my bed, cosily tugged in. and i just savour every word in the lyrics slowly, letting it speak to me and it really convey what i want to tell abba. its funny how some old songs just cannot be compared to the new ones. its like these songs have been through with you the happiest and darkest moments of your life and they understand. the good thing is, you dont have to say anything. just listen and let it speak to your heart.

'if he's really the one, five to ten years down the road, he'll still be the one. nothing will change if it's planned by Me, just like how the call in your life is irrevocable.'

irrevocable - not to be revoked or recalled; unable to be repealed or annulled; unalterable.

coolz. ^_^

no one said that life was gonna be problem free eh? i find that sometimes i'm troubled by matters because i feel that i don't deserve the best. maybe its because of the past which made me feel this way and because of the insecurities i have. for now, i'm stuck because i dont know what to do. it's not right for me to do anything. actually i secretly wish that you knew but i guess thats not the way it is. so...nvm. i'm still learning.. (:

anyway, met up with gracia and huizhi today for dinner and to catch up. its always nice and comfortable to hang out with girl friends. there's just something special about girl friends and i really thank God for the girl friends that they have put in my life. its like, they understand what you are going through and you know that if you fall, they will be there to catch you and if you need to cry, they will cry with you. that's why im really thankful to daddy.

and i got my first decent pay! was like so excited when i got my pay!! -jumps around like a small girl- and i got my new specs..its making me feel giddy cause its new. hurr..and tmr's my off day! like yay! im just gonna laze in my bed and sleep and put my phone on silent mode so that i am going to have a good and blessed rest! (prays that the re-roofing progress thingy will NOT be on) alright, blessed day ahead to everyone! cheers! ciao! (:

went to watch juno today with kailin, sheryl and yan. its a really cool movie. like the plot and everything else. so yay! and it got me thinking..i'm sure i'll be able to find someone like that next time (: more cg outings!!

results are gonna be out on friday. seriously speaking, i'm not feeling any feelings now. its like this no feeling feeling. :/

daddy, thank you for showing me more and more of your love for me. i admit this year has been one of the most challenging years for me, with lots of new changes for me to adapt and you have expose me to some of my greatest fears. but at the same time, i'm really glad you never once gave up on me. if its only you that i can cling on to, then its you i am gonna cling on to.

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you, it's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

finally got to meet up with the girls today! (:

was supposed to meet them at 730pm at clarke quay and i wanted to take a one hour power nap BUT when i woke up and check my phone (it was around 815pm), i had like NINE miss calls from ping and i went like shit.. ha ha but i'm really glad that i still gotta meet up with you all (dawnieee, drey, ping and nickyyyy) and had dinner and just talked and laughed. yay! cool! meet up again next week before collecting our results! :/

cheers!

was just reading my blog post which i wrote two years ago, the day before receiving my O levels results. and this year, im praying the same prayer i did two years ago. sometimes its so easy to tell others what to do, but when you're in that situation yourself, you go like 'shucks'. that's why, all the more i want myself to be rooted in His Word which can never fail me. if His Word says He has a plan to give me a hope and a future, then it MUST be so.

working at mrs fields has enabled me to grow in more ways than one. from mopping the floor (ha ha) to talking to people to knowing people's stories. you know actually we are really blessed? it's just that we fail to see how blessed we actually are. sometimes things doesn't turn out the way we want them to BUT the ones i really admire are those who make the best out of it. it makes me want to learn more from them.

and i'm finally going to meet my girls tmr! (: yay! okay, so goodnight world. God bless.

the desires that He has placed in your heart, the passions that drive you in life

it's 3.30am now and i'm missing A3 and the girls so so much. haven't seen you all for what? decades? okay, maybe not that long, but i'm still missing you all. can't wait to meet up with all of you, like seriously. (i bet you all miss my jokes) (:

pictures be up soon! promise!

last sunday's sermon was by far one of the best sermons i've heard. it's so simple yet powerful and i just felt His presence so strongly, especially at the last part. i can't really describe how i felt at that point of time, but i saw the walls come tumbling down. it was as though the walls are so high they blocked my vision of everything and i'm encircled by the walls no matter where i turn to. but i saw it tumbling down when we shouted, and i saw sunlight shining in.

And I’ll wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

a song can speak to many different people in many different ways eh?

so hello people! i havent been blogging for quite some time i realised. hohum. life's been pretty good with the chinese new year, hanging out with besties and cg, working at mrs fields....the one thing i missed out on: my favourite SA peepos. i miss you guys so so much!! cant wait to meet up with you all this week! yay! (: ill post up pictures soon!!

i really thank God for the friends that He has put into my life. its amazing because I've learnt so much from them. and if there's one thing that i can hold on to when all else fail, its His word. there's something about it which gives me hope, not the kind of wishing hope, but the kind of hope you can expect because His word says so and because He doesn't lie. and when everything else seem hopeless and clueless for me, its only His word which comfort me and gives me hope. and im thankful for that.

its just not the same anymore. and im not expecting anything anymore. in other words, i've given up. and its okay. because i guess you're just not the one i thought you would be.

Where a little faith’s enough
To see mountains lift and move

ONE OF THE BEST SHOWS I'VE EVER WATCHED..



uh huh uh huh -nods head- its jumong - prince of the legend. ssssshhhhhh today's the last episode and i feel so sad. no more zhumeng to watch when i come home from tomorrow onwards. its seriously one of the best shows i've ever watched. 81 episodes (we have come a long way, havent we?) the tears, the laughters..... oh oh oh. its a really nice show!! edwin would totally agree with me cause he's the only other person who likes it very very much. we found another new recruit btw, jimmy!!

anyway, i think this week been really cool. i mean its a good break for me this week, just focusing on God's love for me and building a relationship all over again. and really, its when you focus on Him that all things will be added unto you... -SMILES- im going to work in the transit area starting from tmr onwards!! got my visitor pass today and i went to walk around the transit area and i think its really cool. like wayyyyyy cool you know? i really get to meet all sorts of people and yeah i think its gonna be fun! yeah i think God is revealing more about what He has installed for me in this life. like what kind of jobs im going to pursue and all so yeah i pray that He will open up more doors for me. i do not have to achieve great things to be happy you know? i have been focusing on the big dreams inside of me, the great things which i want to see happening in my life that i lost sight of the small things which makes me happy..but i'm really glad that daddy said 'welcome home, clarice'.

met up with dawnie, drey and ping today for dinner at marina square! (will post up pictures tmr becuase the file size are SO big) i cant remember the restaurant name even though i tried to remember the name. haha. yeap dinner was great. after that, we just hanged around the stairway taking pictures and just talking. simple but sweet..you get what i mean? its these simple yet meaningful things which makes me happy. so yeahhhhh thank God for that! (:

okay dokes, gotta go sleep now! goodnight and God bless!

ALOHA!

work's been pretty cool, except that its kinda boring because im working at terminal three basement for now. so friends, what ya waiting for? come visit me and color my dull life at the airport. hohum but its kinda good too, because i get to read and the airport is really peaceful. haha been spending time with God so its good (: nvm, NEXT WEEK NEXT WEEK! TRANSIT AREA!

oh i bought a new camera! its so prettyyyy! the old one was......lets not talk about it. so there'll be pictures from now on! :D

today was spent having dinner with sereneseahforest at relish (where yaoguang works). we went to visit him! hope he had a good surprise! haha well, the place's kinda niceeeee and food's pretty good too. a lot of drama ma ma before we finally got there! hohoho. after that was dessert at island creamery! yummyyy. had a good heart to heart talk with bestie about everything! we should do this more often sereneseah!






all the best to dave, mal and marcus whose going to army tomorrow! will miss you guys!! cant wait to meet up with the girls tmr for dinner and then first (after a very long time) with the usuals. God bless!

SIGNING OFF,

MISS FIELDS.

day two @ WORK.

well yeah its supposed to be a friday. heh. work today was great too! learnt more stuff and im liking the people there more and more! or the ones i know at least (: worked with this guy called yunjie today and hes really nice to work with so -SMILES- ohhhhh thanks for all who dropped by and for the bubble teaS! (dawne and dawnieeee) hehehe. so touched and i really appreciate it! you could literally see the smile in my heart when i see someone familiar popping out! HOHOHO. hehe. OH OH OH, i got bitten by ONE STUPID FREAK INSECT TODAY!! omg, THREE BITES somemore! no joke OKAY! i was traumatized for quite a while. like literally. stupidinsectstupidinsect!!! but overall, still gotta thank daddy for the supernatural favor to get along with the people and the customers! (: oh sheryl, i read your blog and i totally understand how you feel :D

gonna work morning shift later on and im quite excited once again -nods head- bake more cookies COOKIES COOKIES! (who stole the cookies from the cookies jar? not ME, then WHO? yadayada reads:kafai, wheres mr field? HAHA okay not funny) okay, gtg get some sleep then work, ARROW, and meet up with the classmates! YAY. K. BYE.

pleasantly tired.

I’m a flower, soaking in the Rain,
If I could wish one thing, I’d hear you call my name

first day @ WORK.

wheeeeeee! work today was fun! haha got to bake cookies and all! so yay! im a happy girl! there are lots of things to learn like ohmygawdddd but i guess its alright. haha thanks to everyone who came down! i really appreciate it! (: yeah made new friends (joelle and dora and twins and aunties) and they're really nice. hehe :p mopped and swept the floor for the first time in my life (uh huh nods head) and i got the auntie tsking away when she saw the way i held the broom and the mop. hahaha. thank you daddy for giving me the supernatural favor to get along with everyone and i believe that this is only the beginning and i will love what im doing more and more. amen.

and lets start this all over again. back to the beginning. its not a religion, its a relationship.

seems like everyone's employed now! so its good that i have a job now too! weeeeeee and im really excited because its my first job in my whole life (yada yada yada) and yeah im so excited!! well, i pray that it will be good and that i will have favor with the people whom im working with. supernatural favor. amen. so, ill be working at cine mrs fields tmr and fri from 3pm to 1030pm and on sat from 9am to 4pm! (:(: a bit scared, nervous but yet excited..

besides, i think its good that i have things to do now so that i will stop myself from thinking way too much.

you know?

lifehouse is the most awesome band ever. seriously.

work starts tmr! and im so excited! gonna bake cookies, cookies and more cookies! (: