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First up, happy birthday to princess val! =) It was awesome meeting up with the f&f girls. <3

I am feeling so bored now I am going to fall asleep. Last paper on wed. Let's just say I really can't wait for exams to be over! All the best to everyone else whose having their papers during this period, and after that, we can totally let our hair down and partyyyyyyy.

Can't wait for christmas to be here this year. I think it's gonna be awesome, really.

P.S, i dontlikeglobalisationanymore.

above all.

wow, sorry for my lack of updates! i can see that i have been pretty stagnant here (shall attempt not to be so stagnant anymore).

life has been pretty good. with its ups and downs (duh) and with exams coming in EIGHT days time, i want to put on my specs, wear long skirts and just be a geek. x.X okay, not like being a geek = smart.

i shall post up pictures after my exams which ends on 19th nov! haha freedom bell rings. i miss f&f girls x100000000.

for now, i guess i shall just stick to packing my notes! =)

Hello world, hope you're listening.

Six weeks into school and week seven is going to start in a day's time.

Time really flies. I kinda wish that time would pass slower so that I could have the time to just stone.

I hope everyone whose reading this is doing good. Haven't updated here in a while but just to let you know that I'm alive (just in case you're wondering where in the world have I been). Meet ups with all my loves during the past few weeks had been really good. I'm missing all of you now already.

One midterm test next week (just proves my point that time really flies) and then it's recess week. I've already started making plans for my recess week haha I sound so deprived.

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reporting live from school.

third week into school and this is actually the actual start of proper school for the next eight weeks or so.

life has been pretty good and I'm more or less settling down. but the amount of readings are stacking up each day like nobody's business. ilovesociology. its sucha a fun subject which makes you think a lot. =)

well, i hope everyone's doing good too! be it in school or army. God bless!

signing off,
ilikegreenn.

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went out to read with weiling today. it was very funny. met up with pinky and dawnie after that and it was so good to see them. hearts them totally. i miss all the girls! really miss you all a lot. lets all really meet up soon okay?

loves. (:

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first week of school had been pretty good. but really busy. thank God for no school on mon and tues to catch up with friends and readings. all the best to the nus people starting school this week! (:

God bless.

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school's starting tmr.

i finally got my whole timetable planned out. so its a four day week in school for me for the next 12 weeks. thats good considering the fact that i was absent at least once every week in sa.

perhaps its due to the long holiday that i had which makes me feel like im still in the holiday mood. cant really tune myself into the school mode. i guess it will take a while to adjust back. no more waking up at 12noon-ish except on tues.

update me about your school! (the one reading this unless you're still in army then...its a different story) eggcited to know about it!

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today, i went for hss welcome day. met up with weiling before that for lunch. and someone was obviously lacking behind in time (i hope you're not reading this). the welcome day was okay. actually, not really. but it was fine. thank God weiling was with me, or else i think ill just hide in the toilet and start calling people up. got my matriculation card and i really wish i had given them a better photo of myself. maybe i should just lose my card so that i can make a new one. ha ha. okay no, i was just kidding.

met up with cia and huizhi for dinner at tm after that. it was good. its really nice to just chill and hang out with people whom you love. (:

i said in the previous post that school starts in three days time. well, i take that back because the first week of school there's no tutorials. so no tutorial this coming monday = no school. and tuesday i dont have any lessons. so technically, school starts in four days time for me!

i am going to sleep early today. been sneezing a lot the later half of the day and i feel really tired. so goodnight world.

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today, i went for GL. it was good. i would think forty-five mins is really not enough.

met up with huizhi, gracia and jo for dinner after that, followed by a great time of fellowship. it was awesome. oh, frolick is currently one of my favorite food. <3 i was buying yogurt today at frolick and the person working there (who was really pretty btw) asked if i was from sa. and im like really surprised because i didnt realise she's from sa. but it was pretty cool i guess. (:

school's starting in three days time.

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today, i met up with a few of my cg girls and we went to jade's house to chill out. watched the video 'This Is Our God' and a sermon by T.D.Jakes during hillsong conference last year. it was good. after that, we fellowshipped quite a bit and i was quite amazed by myself. how things have just been accelerated.

i guess when you've caught a glimpse of it, you'll want more and you'll realised that you can never get enough of it.

with stars on.

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today, i met up with bestie to catch up at town. talked a lot and we both realised quite a lot of things about ourselves. that we are not alone in this. it got kinda spooky at one point of time, but im glad that things always turn out for our good. caught red cliff and it was a pretty awesome movie i must say, although it being a bit gruesome.

i realised that i really like soup pasta. they taste so yummy.

and now, im craving for famous amos cookies.

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today i woke up really early. which kinda resulted in me sleeping even more after that. i literally spent my whole day sleeping today. school's starting in a week's time and i really need to start sleeping properly. i dont wanna be late for my lessons.

i realised that im beginning to like staying in at home more and more. and like do nothing, except to read and listen to songs, and sleep. on the contrary, i dislike going out, especially to crowded and congested places more and more. in a way, they make me feel like puking and sends my mind off in a whirl.

with stars on.

hello everybody.

It's been a while, hasn't it?

I'm really glad for this journey. Period of molding and sharpening. It's indeed like a miracle. =)

I just really wanna thank you guys (everyone of you) who are there to share my pain with me through this toughest period of my life, who believe with me for the best and never gave up on me. And now, you guys share my joy. It's not only my joy because in my opinion, this joy is shared among all of us. Indeed.

Above all else, thank You abba for everything. thank You daddy for being there even at times where I just gave up. You never did. Not a single moment. And no words could express how I felt throughout this whole journey. You were my only constant companion. And You are the same yesterday, today and forever will be. Thank You so much.

Yup, am loving my short hair! ha ha. Was kinda worried that I might not like it at first, but going for a change is always good! I LOVE and HEART the people above! (PLUS MY FAVOURITE NICKYYY whose not in the picture, someone's in PARIS at that time eh. YOU'RE BEING MISSED POKKK!) I want to insert my whole cg group picture plus all the church friends picture but sorry, don't have one full picture of all of us in it. :D

ANYWAYS, I thought it through. I actually drew out a mind map of what I'm actually bothered about and at first I was still quite disturbed and worried. But after the talk with sis, I'm good. It's just one small problem but I choose to magnify it a thousand times which is totally unnecessary. I have my family who loves me and wants me to be happy, friends who loves me and wants me to be happy and most importantly, I have GOD who will never condemn me no matter what happens and LOVES me and wants me to be HAPPY above all else. So I really shouldn't be so upset. It's not the end of the world or anything. I'm going to start expecting again from today onwards. (:

nightmares.

This is supposed to be a happy post.

But I changed my mind.

Right now, I feel like I'm living in a nightmare. I want to wake up and get everything over and done with. It's been three months and it's leeching on to me.

Why won't you understand me? Why is it so hard to talk to you? I know all the right answers and I know what I should do. But I don't need you to tell them to me right now. I just need someone real to hug me and let me cry. I don't want to imagine. I don't want to think. Don't tell me all the right answers and what I should do, because I know.

It's silly, I know. But I found my comfort in a piece of paper which has really ugly handwriting. But it is there, I find myself to be normal.

BACK!

Ahoy everyone! ilikegreenn is back from hiatus! (:

Just got back from church camp at batam and it was really good! Will update more later. Came home and slept for like 19 hours! yup, that's like my record breaking amount of time that I've ever slept.

I know you guys really miss ilikegreenn so I'm back!

Going for fourth service later so i gotta go get ready now. Blessed day ahead people! :D

time check: 4.20am.

mount of beatitudes
nothing but the blood
i will run to you
hosanna
saviour king
potter's hand
healer
from the inside out
settled down thoughts
dont worry
ravens
lilies
solomon
how much more
hose
seek Him first
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'who do YOU say I am, clarice?'
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peace in my heart and mind
finally tired
and able to sleep.

because i know that i know that i know that its only and only between You and me. and i know You're my only answer, not anyone else.

when the whole mix of emotions come rushing over you and your heart beats so fast...when you cant seem to settle down and your mood just take for a plunge...its not that you dont want to believe..its just that believing seems so....hard at such a point of time. thousands of thoughts are running through my head now. 'what if....what if....' stop it clarice. stop thinking. i really want to believe..i really do. but daddy, im really quite faithless to believe right now. it came too fast, my mind couldnt process it. my heart couldnt stop beating so fast and my face feels really hot.

and i just want to hide under my bed and cry.


abba, give me the strength to control my emotions and patience to wait, because for now..i really feel like its hopeless..the one thing im trusting You for..the one thing that is close to my heart..i do NOT accept this. amen.


how im feeling now: ): x10000000000000000000000000

i'm currently at work and its so boring because i have no flights until much later..i realised that this has been happening to me quite often when i work. i know its cool to just slack and get paid. but..this is like woahhhhh. haha okayz. whateverz.

soooo i hope everyone's having a good week thus far. (:

thank you abba for the friends you've put around me. the fellowship that we share is awesome. i just wanna thank you for that. really... for each and everyone of my friends........

okay this is getting so random and out of point. rahhhhhhhhh :/

awesome praise and worship.
awesome anointing.
awesome sermon.

I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I
no more.

slowly but surely. i know He will teach me and He has already begun. long before i was even born.